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You can learn a lot of things from the flowers
For especially in the month of June
There's a wealth of happiness and romance
All in the golden afternoon.

- the movie Alice In Wonderland

The coworker I talked to said he likes Saw, and plays DbD and mains Dwight when he plays survivor. I love this man. /half joke

Edit: I also think he's autistic. He makes my Autidar go off for many reasons, and I just realized he didn't make eye contact with me once + he barely even looked at me (which made it so easy to talk to him omfg).

Maybe I should become a vegetarian. I'm getting more and more passionate about animal rights and so sensitive about animals getting killed. I believe in animals and that they have just as much right to be here as humans do. Humans may be intelligent but we're the ones destroying the planet.

But then if I did become a vegetarian that wouldn't stop animals being killed. So what's the point? But I don't think I can eat meat happily any more.

I went vegetarian after seeing the live-action Charlotte's Web in 2006.

It didn't last very long, maybe six months.

I felt the way you do.

I was a vegetarian for 9 years. I’m planning on going back to it in the near future.

Creating my own Metaverse with my characters.

Taking trips downtown for inspiration.

Why am I so...
I dunno, 'less egocentric' if my body is currently in a form less healthier state?

Lately, instead of attempting to 'take care of myself more', I've been way more lax.
Ate more sugar, drank some coffee, did not sleep no more than few hours at a time even.

Yet, instead of carrying some sort of mess in my head or remain not to explain myself -- I managed to. And even better.

Didn't felt this 'subtle FOMO' every night -- I'd just sleep early and willingly, yet also sleep shorter not to make up for lost time, but to simply do nothing.

And at work I chose to basically enjoy this 'doing nothing' few minutes an hour. 3 mins at most.
And without feeling this inertia or that fleeing like feeling that I'm waiting it to end for it's own sake.


Is this some sort of mechanism that made me feel less defensive?
If so I'd rather stay like this. It doesn't feel good, it doesn't even feel healthy.
Yet it makes me 'happier'. It's way, way, less disonating.

I could care less if I made so many mistakes -- I'm not being this whiny brat who cannot learn a damn lesson. And I'm not wasting time licking imaginary wounds.

To a point that through this state, I deduced that a good part of the reason why I struggle to get up and also hate sleep, other than crappy breathing -- is dehydration.

I cannot sleep for 8+ hours straight without feeling a hung over.
Instead I have to only sleep for 4 hours, rehydrate from there and not wake up with the same stupid feeling that kept me from getting up until I'm almost late for work.

Seriously, I may have some form of electrolytes issue somewhere. Cramping without eating a banana at night is one thing, and then this...

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One of my coworkers gave me a Pride pin she found and I honestly didn't expect her to be the type to do that. It lowkey made me happy. lol

was there a rainbow chalice?

I can't wait to stretch out in my own bed tonight

Two of my little cousins gave me a bunch of tiny rocks and I put them in my back pocket, and now I'm sitting on rocks because I said I'd keep them. lmfao

Take them to the car as a chance to escape get some air.

The rocks, I mean.