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I'm very sorry if I came across as rude or disrespectful in my reply. It wasn't intentional. I was just trying to say that I put in a lot of effort to take care of my cats, and after all these years they kind of run the show around my house.

Three years ago I was filming this item for an artist development program in which the organiser mentioned that you should really pursue your passions when you start dreaming about it, and also generally think about it at each moment of the day.
Yesterday I finally had a dream about a random song idea of mine. Today I actually tried recording that cover again and it just frustrated me that, despite having made many songs at this point, I had trouble composing that cover as well as getting the vocals right due to my voice being monotonous. Slowly I am starting to realise that although I like having music and shaping sonic worlds, I don't think that music is my true calling.

blah blah blah you don't have to know your true calling yet, your life isn't over by the time you're 30

Of course I am aware of this, but I have already wasted most of my twenties, partially due to the pandemic and its after effects as I have become more isolated than ever throughout the past five years. I spent so much time pursuing my dream life while getting rejections and financial issues. Even now I have a job I would consider my "dream job" from a capitalism perspective, and it doesn't pay me enough. My unemployment benefits from my previous employer were denied after I waited six weeks for the government to get back at me because god forbid I decided to quit two weeks before my actual contract would end therefore I wasn't officially "unemployed" according to their guidelines. I can't afford to do anything I enjoy, I live in a country I don't like living in, even traveling to different cities within the country is expensive!

And I've been trying to get extra work that's enjoyable, and damn I have learned that it's not just me, but everybody else is also a poor communicator and planner because I spend so many times keeping days free for work-related plans just for them to call things off extremely last minute.

Sick of spending my life isolated away from society.

I'd love the maximum crisp setting me

Some form of instability...

Hmmm...

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Lose more time here - Updates at least once a week.

I'm reluctant to post sometimes in case people think I'm taking the piss

I write a post in all sincerity and then I read it back and it's like I'm reading it through someone else's eyes and I can see how what I'm saying might be misconstruedled or misunderstood so I just don't bother posting it

I think it's time to put an end to this mode of thought

I think the human race isn't long for extinction

American jokes.

Comedy's not what it was

Mmmmmmtired
Slightly still manic sister rearranging ain’t helping

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It would be so much easier if my mum had any form of technology for entertainment here in hospital. She doesn’t know how to use a phone, a tablet, any form of music or movie or anything to keep her occupied besides me. She can’t see to read but doesn’t like reading anyway. Even headphones would be a plus to stop the incessant beeping of totally useless and broken machines which keep her awake 24/7. I’d go out of my mind if I were her. Then again she IS out of her mind. Being belted down and immobile with ADHD and nothing to do can’t be fun either.

Burning fish in the oven set off the smoke alarm. Of course it was while I was in the shower and no one else was in the house.
At this point if there was a real fire we wouldn't believe it.

I've been absorbed in my crafts over the past few days. I feel a bit of a high when I'm working on things.

My brain is independent