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26 May 2024, 11:24 am

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In which I'm at least half way on mastering the pattern concepts over humanity.

Because humans and their unpredictability frustrates me.
Because I believe even emotions itself has some sort of 'physics'. Thus whatever I kept dubbing as 'human fundamentals'.
Because the stupid game as rules and I would want to decode it so I'd know how to enter the NT world bubble, bypass their rules or use said rules against them.

In which the knowledge itself just happened to extend to human behaviors, relationship dynamics, and the answer as to why social norms exists.

So I don't need to ask NTs anymore.
I don't need to question anymore; only more present information -- I'll just know how to integrate it.

And should the day come a fellow autistic question all of this, I can aide them to the 'whys'.
Give them a framework on how to approach particular informations.

But as I said...
This is only halfway done. It's not enough and I would know and still feel the gaps...

I want to kill the gaps of knowledge.
The gaps were the main source of my frustration.
The gaps is what makes me feel helpless or made things going to nowhere.

I love watching nt people get drunk I do

They make me feel normal

I don't know... I may have a very different concept of 'normal'...

Many accounts I've read and heard, when they say 'they want to be normal' it would mean they long for safety, companionship, inclusion, acceptance, being a part of something bigger, feeling 'stable' or stability and just being overall relatable in a sense like most humans do as they believed to be...

But not me. I might even not have a real concept of 'normal'.
Only 'usual', like, a concept of assumed predictable statistical tendency or odds.

Not... Whatever most people calls as 'to feel normal' -- lack of loneliness, lack of oddity, lack of exclusion or singling out, lack of 'discrimination' or particular difference that people tend to be insecure about.

If they're exceptional, they want to 'go down there, struggle and join them blissfully'.
If they're the type who gets left out, it's the NT's "flaws" or issues.
If they've been through particular circumstances or in particular situations, it's having similarities and relatability...
And so forth...

I don't know.
It's one of the things I couldn't easily relate.

But sure! Watching drunk people can be entertaining. :lol:

They don't make me feel normal though; they just make me see that they're more predictable in a different way.

They can be fun, they can be bothersome; all the same, more data and info for me about them. :twisted:

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26 May 2024, 11:37 am

Yeah maybe normal was the wrong word. I just feel more comfortable

Only with drunk people who I already know

It's as if they're less inhibited somi feel free to be more me

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26 May 2024, 11:58 am

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Yeah maybe normal was the wrong word. I just feel more comfortable

Only with drunk people who I already know

It's as if they're less inhibited somi feel free to be more me

Drunkenness is a great excuse to skip certain rules and a background context that makes other people get away with or let others do things they don't usually do, say, or even think of.

And yeah.
Getting drunk with other people is an easy group synch. To many, it just removes the anxiety and overthinking.

To me, there's no real internal differences if I actually drink or not (save for the physical effects of consuming alcohol) -- only the social context and implication of what others may think about the act of me (if they knew who I'm, they knew I don't drink and will say no -- otherwise I'm just another apparent lightweight woman) drinking (and their expectations over their idea of any-someone who did drank) itself on top of the settings itself like the occasion, who was with me, what's my relevance to the occasion, what's my relevance to the other people, etc.
And that's not even starting with the conversation itself.

... Yeah.
How does one 'calculate' that much 'data' in a single glance? Manually even more so...

:lol:

Actually, it's harder to think of those things when drunk -- but if stopping the overthinking and inhibitions helps someone more than all that mental calculation, who am I to protest?

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26 May 2024, 12:06 pm

I'm turning 19 today.
My birthday present is listening to my grandfather talk about cryptocurrency.

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26 May 2024, 12:07 pm

Happy birthday, utterly absurd!!

I hope you have a great day with your grandfather!
Take lots of pictures!

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26 May 2024, 12:09 pm

Happy Birthday.

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26 May 2024, 12:18 pm

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I'm turning 19 today.
My birthday present is listening to my grandfather talk about cryptocurrency.

Many happy returns to you and have a great day

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26 May 2024, 12:46 pm

I had a really nice chocolate cake the other day, which looked a bit like that photo.

Yum.

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26 May 2024, 12:47 pm

Are people here getting more cakes lately? :lol:

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26 May 2024, 12:48 pm

I can't stop thinking about cake :lol:

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26 May 2024, 12:50 pm

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Are people here getting more cakes lately?

I had a slice for a family member's birthday the other day. That's my excuse. :lol:

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26 May 2024, 12:51 pm

I should say: many happy returns of the cake, when it's someone's birthday

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26 May 2024, 1:36 pm

I'm quickly shifting into 3-4am sleep time.

Better not do it the next day again.
Especially not when Summer is soon over here.

No more coping with the sun heat.
In goes the cold, the rain, the stormy season, potential floods, wet clothes, wet footwear, wet umbrellas, and electrical blackouts.

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26 May 2024, 1:48 pm

Wear cat ears at your own peril. Not everyone can handle such a sight.

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26 May 2024, 1:54 pm

utterly absurd wrote:

I'm turning 19 today.
My birthday present is listening to my grandfather talk about cryptocurrency.

Heyyy happy birthday utterly absurd!! !

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