Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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My daughter being sick so i have had to steam and disinfect the whole unit.

unlovable,

Lucky I have my pets to remind me that I'm still human, lucky I don't care to much about these things

I'd end up having to be mushie ,stupid and gross to do so

Anticipating yet another busy weekend.

went to uni today breaking my 2 days a week out of the house rule with the intention or reading the antisexism manifesto which was supposed to be in the club store room but it wasnt so i cant read it before saturdays reading group which means i had to cancel and i feel so guilty for it. like really guilty. i was looking forward to it too. i also tried to go print off my uni union membership so i could hand it in and get my sticker and union pack but i wasn't able to log on to the computer and the tech guy spent ages trying to figure out why and he left thinking he had fixed it but he hadnt and it was after 5 so the union office had shut. the 1.5hr illicit trip was wasted. and i bumped into a former lecturer and i couldnt bring myself to tell her i absolutely loathe landscape architecture and i am ditching the course and she said "i'll see you when term begins". so now im a guilty chicken.

there should be a thread that is titled "post something that made you ambivalent today".

i can not tell whether i should post what i want to post in the "happy" thread or the "unhappy" thread, because i am ambivalent, and because there is no "ambivalent" thread, then that swings my decision to post in the "unhappy" thread (this one).

i have made an offer on a house and the offer was accepted. that makes me happy . the house is an exceptional bargain as far as i am concerned . that makes me happy . i considered why there was so little interest in the house and why it was so cheap and i became worried, and that made me unhappy. then i realized it was because there are no schools nearby (i do not have kids), and there is no public transport nearby (i have cars), and there are no shops nearby (i do not mind driving 13 km to the shops), and there is no neighbors nearby (no social aspect), and since i do not like to live near people, that also made me happy. also there is no hospital within 1/2 hour of the house (i am healthy). that made me happy.

but i have commissioned a conveyancer (which is the law) to handle the contracts and arrange building inspections and pest inspections etc. that process is tracking very slowly, and all the while, the house remains on all the major real estate sites as "for sale". that makes me unhappy. i am freaking out that either someone else will offer more than i have offered, or that the building inspection will reveal that it is about to fall down because of termites or something. that makes me unhappy.

i can not see why people are not clamoring to secure this property because it is ideal in my opinion.
i do not think i will be outbid, or that the inspection will yield bad news, but none the less, i am not happy yet because i have not paid for the 10% deposit yet which means that it remains on the market. i want that house badly, and i will still buy it even if it has termite damage (which there is no indication of). when i pay the 10% deposit, then the property is legally off the market, and no chinese investor who discovers it can offer even twice what i offered and be accepted.

i do not understand why it is the law that i must pay only a 10% deposit, because i have all the money in the bank to buy the house immediately. i am not getting a loan or anything. i want to pay 100% of the money immediately, and i want to walk in an drop my keys on the table and have the exhilarating feeling that "ahhh this is mine".

the conveyancer will not even accept a 10% deposit until she receives advice from the building inspector that the property is sound, and before i pay the 10% deposit, the property is still up for grabs. i am nervous and unsettled.

everyone i know is congratulating me for my offer being accepted by the owner, and they can not see why i am not yet moved to smile. i have been advised that it is extremely unlikely that someone will offer more than i have in the next few days, and i have researched where termite infestations occur, and i know that it is very unlikely that the house has termites, but i am still not going to let my self be launched into a "victory" feeling.

i seem to have anxieties that are unreasonable, and everyone thinks i should be elated, but i will wait and see while the butterflies aggravate my stomach lining.

i want the process to happen immediately.

i mean goodness, even when i log into my bank website, i am anxious to see that my money is still there. i have worries that either a bank program error may nullify my balance, or that someone has hacked into it and stolen my money.

until i walk into the house and shut the door behind me, and i know there are no more processes to be required to happen, i will not breathe a huge sigh of relief.

over the last 2 years, i have lost my sense of humor and my intense investigation of all my interests because i have been renting a place which causes stress. i never know whether my lease will be renewed when it comes up for renewal, and i freak out that i may have to look for another place to rent, and there are always 20-30 people who attend inspections of properties up for rent, and because they are normal average people with spouses and kids, they are selected in front of me.
i was very lucky to get this place i am currently in, but it is always precarious because it is up to the decision of the landlord whether i continue to live here.

i pay my rent always on time, and i have not caused any wear and tear here, but who knows? maybe the owner wants to give it to his children to live in and i will have to go. i live on a main road and there is truck after truck that perpetually drives past and i hate it.

i now have secured a house that will be mine and rent will be a thing of the past (i pay $20,000 per year in rent), and there is wildlife and peacefulness and silence there, and until i actually finish all the procedures pertaining to acquiring it, i will be nervous.

whatever. this is a kind of vent. i always am anxious about something these days, and it sucks all my energy out of my usual humerous nature and my creative nature.

Headaches and regrets.

laundry, more laundry, backache

I hate group discussions, especially when the projects involved are due before the end of class. For some reason, I have to remind everyone about the subject continually to prevent a discussion of what someone said on the accursed Facebook.

I'm afraid that I'm going to be stuck working with Lisa tomorrow, instead of working with a higher up who's more relaxed.

I don't get to see my friend/crush for five whole days.

Tomorrow will be deathly dull. I wonder what I should do aside from work out the intricacies of using squares and intermediate squares to find square roots and potentially acquire a new skill.

i don't like me