I`m thinking a little about the big stuff... i feel very lonely
often and dont have any social life, people i hang around
with, and sometimes it feels very very sad. It just little
ol`me, nothing more. Sometimes i dream of having someone
to care for and love.
But, i have alot of freedom because of it. Thats something
i guess, have no kids or nothing so its pretty much just me
i have to keep alive, i decide myself what i do and dont do,
and when i do it or not. If i want to build a huge fire and
dance naked around it, i just do it, no one sees or cares. So
its not all bad being alone, i have my freedom, its a lonely
freedom but anyway, i appriciate it for what it is. See alot of
people every day working their ass off in blind ends and relationships
that crash and burn in a ugly ugly way, kids getting shipped
back and forth between parents that are in constant war with
each other, glad i dont have that crap around me. So i`m alone
but at least i dont have those things to worry about, draining
me of life
I almost had a kid once, but it died Some days it makes me wanna
cry, other days i just say "f**k it, water under the bridge". I dont
know, its hard but could be worse.