It hit me, it really hit me.
My life is going nowhere.
This isn't really new news, but every other time this occurred I was usually being occupied trying to work towards something.
Technically I'm still working towards projects, but in the bigger scheme of things, I'm not really going anywhere in life.
I've been thinking about how everyone who meets me in person asks about Berlin and whether I'm still there telling them with pain in my heart that I'm here again indefinitely as I had some financial issues with Berlin and I realized I never made a clear statement about my departure. I was picturing my potential long overdue announcement on the matter where I'd explain my situation and that I'm still feeling disoriented trying to adapt, and felt miserable as I realised I have no life plan whatsoever, I haven't felt like myself in years except during that Summer festival job I worked at the past few months. I've been distracting myself by watching a 54 hour long Persona 4 Golden longplay.
Sucks feeling like this knowing I am in charge of my own happiness.