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I can just finally get out of the house soon.
And a lifestyle change that I hope will work out.

What a crappy last 2 damn weeks of my life this year.


The only thing that I managed to pull out of it is an access to anti-asthma medication, and a potential pre-verbal inner kid I had to mind for few days, possibly weeks.

As long as I'm carrying that consciously on my metamorphical lap, I don't think I can confront anything very emotionally disruptive or be in a vulnerable position for a while.


... It's like being a parent to a shaken up kid.

Except I don't feel pissed over this one. Patiently apathetic at best. Slightly pity at worst.

Unlike that the other one I want dead was just an entitled brat, the other was a sulking walking self regret.

This one is just particularly helpless.
Really knew nothing better. Really couldn't do much. And it's pre-verbal.

It emits no pride. It emits nothing defensive.
It has no stupid delusional fancyisms or ideas that led to disappointments.

Just this... Inability to flee. Inability to fight.
More likely confused why mom and dad fight. It might not even understand what a fight even is.

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I can definitely see how a person could munch through a full box of Ritz crackers in a day