Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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feeling sick.. bleh..

Bloody nose.
I hate this dry weather!! !

Silence.

When I woke up this afternoon, my hair was so greasy that it looked like I didn't even take a shower last night (which isn't true). So I had to take another shower today.

I still have that stupid cold.

I'm just sooooooooooo tired of everything.

I'm just so tired of being tired.

my dad and i had another shout fest about uni. and my parents noticed i was covered in glitter and were like "you didnt join them in mardi gras did you?". i did but i said no because i like having a roof over my head. both proceeded to go on homophobic rants and my mum tried to take off her top to prove a point. their solution to any argument is to strip. and they say i am immature.
i also realised that yesterday i saw one of the youth workers from queer youth group and forgot that they were not working there anymore and forgot to ask stuff about their new work.
and it was sunny this morning. fred nile(or peter madden. i forget which) always prays for rain on mardi gras and it didnt impact how enthusiastic everyone was or how many turned out but it cant be sunny the day after.
my friend posted pictures of her at mardi gras which is fine for her but im still in the closet and my mum thinks i was with her yesterday because she was my cover story for being there and my mum facebook stalks a lot. god i knew i shouldnt have added her. i broke my security rules and this is what happens when you break the rules. worse than that she was with the queer youth group i go to with identifying tshirts. if my mum finds out about that... i dont even want to think about it. i'll just have to take what happens in the next few days, if anything does, and hope to god the people at centrelink are feeling nice and deal with my claim promptly so i can get out before it blows up. im kinda scared. its bound to come out some time.
i also think im going to have to dump my friend. im not sure i will yet but she says stuff sometimes- really horrible things- and im having an ethical crisis in being her friend unless she changes. i dont accept the things she says from people who arent my friends. she should be no different. ah well. it was easier when i was friendless.

Getting my HECS/HELP invoice.

Oh no another day go away

I went out to dinner with my father and he spent the whole time trying to convert me to Christianity.

I cannot stop stressing no matter what I do. I've tried nigh on everything, still angsty/panicky/stressy. And it seems that is keeping me on my weight loss plateau as well.

That is a horrible feeling, I get like that at times. I only wish I had some advice to give. I have been losing weight recently and wonder if it's connected to the unhappy reason I was going to write;

I am rather fed up with getting either a panic attack or some kind of meltdown thing every night I can't get to sleep because of noise, which is rather a lot. It's exhausting me.

Ive got bad flu, I feel like death

^^^ I'm sorry about that. I hope you feel better soon.


I had to get up really early today. That made me unhappy.

Sensory overload. I'm being assaulted by the sounds around me. My nerves are shot and I feel like punching the first person who comes near me.