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I couldn't agree more except that's exactly why I chose not to go to college.. people always ask me why I never went. It's tough to explain.. I can't expect NTs to understand the sheer horror of being around large groups of people my age all day. But you know it's true.. alot of people on the spectrum will say they can never work. Of course I understand some are more low functioning than others, no disrespect, but the only job I find truly impossible is extensive customer service.. answering phones, pleasing people and all that. Me personally I could never do anything of that sort. My mom and dad felt I could never work, and they believed it since I was 12.. I think that's why I do what I do now. I work the crappiest job, super long graveyard shifts, freezing cold.. but it pays decent, and it's a job. Quite honestly it shuts my mom up.. I just remind her my salary exceeds hers.

And of course to stay on topic.. I woke up at 8:30pm. Who does that?

my dad yelled at me for not telling anyone i was going anywhere yesterday. thing is i did tell my sister i was leaving the house and they know that every tuesday i go out with my friend and i have been doing so for half a year or something. well sort of. i say im with a friend but i am not. and even so is it too much to ask that i, a 20yr old adult, be able to go out whenever and wherever i please?
also my comrade got back to me on the availability of a room to rent at her place and her house mate has altered their plans so it won't be available for 2mths. it'll probably take 1 month for centrelinkt o get back to me anyway and they might totally reject me. this doesnt put me out a lot (the room thing), it just yeah i think i might prefer living with someone i know.

edit: i just checked my assignment schedule for this term. i have 2 due next week, 1 the week after and 3 the next. FML. i'm just going to live in my room for the next 3 weeks and not sleep.

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My mother tore the meniscus (cartilage) in her knee yesterday. Took her to the Emergency Room, they took x-rays, gave her a knee immobilizer and some pain meds. She'll have to make an appointment for an MRI, to make sure that no ligaments are torn, and to see how extensive the meniscus tear is... and to determine if she'll need surgery. She's in a lot of pain, and can barely walk.

Headaches.

This.

Finding that the case with all my pens in wasn't in my bag! I think I must have accidentally left it out!

I might not have an oppurtunity of a job after all I imagine I will find out soon enough.

Getting angry with my parents.

Orthodontist appointment. And my D is not budging. :/

I just want to stay home and be left alone. From now on I should mind my own business and ignore anything that goes on outside my home. I am so stressed and anxious now and can't wait for this to be over. I have to go to court (I'm not in trouble) and I don't want to.

College is an absolutely terrifying thought. I'm not good at interacting with people my own age. Most of my friends are three years younger than me, or I have known since childhood and understand that I'm kind of weird and "out there". I worked a few jobs in the past, and although I liked them, I found that the things that I really want to do require education. So avoiding college isn't an option for me at this point, as much as I would love to jump right in to a career.

That's awesome that you found a well paying job that doesn't deal with a lot of people. I don't like customer service, either, although I can fake it for a short period of time. It wears on me, and by the end of the day, I just end up completely exhausted and unable to do anything that I like. So it creates that 'job is my only life' cycle.

I grew up with a mom who was very protective and did everything for me. But at the same time, she had high expectations. Although we had a lot of struggles while I was growing up, I see where she was coming from and can look past how I would have liked to have been raised. I still rely on her for a lot of things, but I'm becoming my own person now and our relationship with one another is a lot better now that there aren't so many stressors for both the of us. I'm ending up talking about my own experiences way too much.
I guess what I am trying to say is that it's great that you were able to surpass your parents expectations and keep a job. I love graveyard shifts! I used to work at the PetsHotel in petSmart taking care of the boarders at night and it was a lot of fun. A lot of work, too! What are you doing that requires you to be out in the cold for so long?


Staying on topic, I'm unhappy today because I slept in until 12:30, even though I went to bed around 10:30 last night. I'm also very anxious about starting school. It's less than three weeks away. I'm thinking maybe I should go to the college a week before my classes start and just 'hang out' to get used to the campus and the people, and familiarize myself with my surroundings.

Also, another thing that's stressing me out is that I'm still having strange heart palpitations, although the doctor checked my thyroid, and I've gotten other blood tests done. Nothing seems to be wrong. The thought that it could be all in my head bothers me more. But that really seems to be the case because it goes away when I stop thinking about it.

I've had times where my heart skips beats and was once told it might be paroxysmal superventricular tachycardia. I was supposed to go for more tests but never did.

Mine could also be from anxiety and stress.

*sighs* I get so frustrated with other people sometimes. I think it's because they rarely ever act the way I expect or want them to.

Life just loooves to suck.

Isn't it such an unnerving feeling? I hate it!

That's exactly why I never went to college. Had I not found a job I probably would have, but I just don't know what I'd want to major in. I just wouldn't want to be around the people my age.. I feel I'm so behind socially I wouldn't fit in, all the drama and everything. But at the same time, no college can be worse.. the job is my life cycle fits in for me well.. while I don't hate my job, full time graveyard hours can really mess up your social life. But then again I see that as a plus side anyways..

I would've *loved* to do the pet hotel.. it was one job I was looking at. If I did something I loved everyday getting paid poorly wouldn't bother me in the least. But right now I work at a fedex warehouse. Technically I'm a truck driver, but it's the slow part of the year so I'm on the dock running a shift. Problem is there's no doors at the warehouse so we're exposed to all the elements.. coldest I've ever worked is 9 degrees in 2010 (or seemingly last night )

I guess we grew up in different enviroments. My parents split early and neither of them had any expectations for me at all. Mom thought I'd work at the movies my whole life, dad just.. I really don't know. I think that's why I do what I do now. Of course I would've rather gone to college, got a degree and pursued a much better life. I have stability, the ability to live on my own, and right now I can't ask for much more, 'cuz everyone told me I couldn't do it. What do you plan on studying at college?

To stay on topic.. well, I've only been awake 30 minutes. I'm sure something at work will piss me off somehow so I'll come back and edit it. I just wanted to reply.