auntblabby wrote:
or that beautiful ice skater johnny weir. but i suppose god arranged for me to have my somewhat more pedestrian visage and physique for a reason, known mostly to god. i have come to terms with it, with me, and with god, i guess.
I can agree with the Johnny Wier sentiment. I've taken up figure skating, and my physique is like an NFL linebacker compared to someone like Johnny Wier. I'm kinda "big" for a figure skater. Right now I'm at 195 pounds, 20% bodyfat, so the max weight I can even drop down to is like... 160s, if I still wanted to keep all my muscle mass and strength. So it sucks, cuz Johnny Wier is the same height as me, and he weighs 130 pounds, so even if I drop to like under 10% bodyfat, I'll weigh like 30-40 pounds more than him. If I keep lifting, it helps my skating enormously, but I also tend to get heavier. But even as a kid, the really skinny ectomorph kinda bodytype was what I wanted, but it's not possible for me, I guess. So yeah, I'll just have to skate and get my power to weight ratio higher, just hoping I don't gain too much weight in the process.
Now, though, I don't feel bad for not being an ectomorph, and I'm likely a meso, which is usually considered most ideal of a bodytype. What sorta made me feel less bad was when I had my Indian friend who's like 130 pounds lift with me, and he told me he wants to get bigger. It's weird how we both want what we can't easily get. But, I hadn't been lifting too long, and neither had he, but it was pretty clear I was like twice as strong as him. So I guess me being sorta "big" isn't anything to like, cry about.
Just yeah, back to the Johnny Wier thing, though, I don't think there's too many like 180ish pound figure skaters, so it'll be interesting if I get far enough into it to compete and whatnot, how I'm perceived. Ironically, my proportions are considered like perfect for hockey.
Oh well, guess you gotta work with what you got. I'd have to say at least for looks and athleticism, God gave me a relatively good set of cards, probably much better than most people. I feel like, the NVLD/Aspergers is just my one weakness God gave me, I feel like without it, I'd be like, superhuman, but alas, the NVLD/Aspergers keeps me humble I guess.