Immortal, I am so sorry you were raped....and, you're right, you're a virgin. There's better - I promise. What an awful thing for you, or anyone, to have to endure. Rape has NOTHING to do with sex; it's just a cowardly attempt at power by the perpetrator. You're very strong. And wise for knowing the violence done to you has nothing to do with sex (or love). I'll bet someday you'll find both though! I am sad just thinking about what must have happened to you........
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The ones who say “You can’t” and “You won’t” are probably the ones scared that you will. - Unknown