I went out today because I've been forcing myself out of my apartment frequently... but unlike usual, very little good came of it .
I went to the mall, and that mostly went fine until a couple of stoner 18ish year olds started to make harassing comments as I passed by them which was... very unpleasant. I walked by as if I didn't hear, since I had my headphones on.
I don't usually let trash get to me, but it just seemed so weird. Since I've cleaned myself up and have been walking alone, males ignore or insult me... or wink at me ... and women smile and act shy too much :/... Makes it pretty hard to talk to anybody, not that I actually had any desire to >_>
Then after the mall, which I just left after being harassed >_>... I went to the nearby liquor store, and got a bottle of bourbon. Which I do like trying new drinks, but I knew I just bought it in self destruct mode :/... I didn't go in for it, and I haven't liked whiskey much, and I got it after deciding I shouldn't drink such strong things alone anymore >_>
Then after I left, I had to wait for the bus to arrive, which there was a whole bus missing from the schedule. So I had to wait the time for two busses to pass by to leave. Also, at the bus stop, a hobo was obnoxiously trying to get my attention for about 1/3 of the 30ish minutes, and then he urinated like 5 feet away from me ... which when I noticed I moved as far away from him as I could be and still be at the bus stop >_>
Then on the way back, I hadn't eaten since I left, so I started to get very depressed by circumstance
So... most of the whole 3 hour trip made me miserable >_>
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