SentientPotato wrote:
An online friend I had for about 5 years. There's things I would tell her that I told no one else (and she was the very first person I went to when it came to light that there was some chance I could be somewhere on the spectrum, as she was on it). It all fell apart because I began to have feelings she could not reciprocate, and unfortunately screwed things up badly. What's worse is that rather than leave things alone as they were, I followed her around hoping to find some way of fixing things, only to have her understandably blow up in my face and regard me as nothing more than a stalker. I haven't seen any trace of her in over 2 1/2 years (nor have I gone looking), and it's taken me over 4 to get to the point where I am now, where she isn't the main focus and don't feel like breaking down (something I could not afford to do, and had to dig VERY deep to find the strength to hide it all from almost everyone).
Same query.
I'm sorry that this relationship ended in the ways you describe. It sounds like you really cared about each other despite being online friends, and I can only imagine how difficult it must have been to let go. Online relationships can become quite intense because people feel safe to expose their inner thoughts with candour.
I don't know the answer to this question for myself. My psychologist asked me the question several months ago and I had no answer. I'm not a communicator so I didn't know what to say. The people I've loved most didn't necessarily have strong conversation skills, and I'm very often mute myself. I think my quick answer would be "my psychologist" because he and I have an excellent rapport. Beyond him, idk. I'm so guarded with people I feel like I've never had reciprocal communication in the ways I'd desire.
same q
My best friend who passed away in 2012. He was the sweetest person I ever knew and I could talk to him about anything, and he never once made me feel like he didn't like me or that there was something wrong with me. He completely accepted me for who I am and we really liked talking and we would buy each other gifts for Christmas and for our birthdays.
I still miss him. I really do.