There are times that I feel old when I'm on here, because most of the members here are at least 10 years younger and most of the people around my age are more into what you'd expect Generation Xers to be into than the things that I enjoy, music and television wise and there might be a few members who are from my own generation who might openly call me boring here in the message boards of WP, because of it. Nobody wants to celebrate with me, the fact that I got my life back on track and started being myself back in the Late September of 2009, because The Kinks and The 60s aren't their own special interests, they don't see what the big deal is and there are a lot of people who've joined after the September or October of 2009 who don't know what the heck I'm talking about. Just because I don't like all the things from 1985 and beyond, some members might think I'm boring or even worse, unhealthy in the head because I am 37 and not 65 years old.
I've had one member ask me wouldn't it be easier and healthier for me to live in the present than it would be for me to enjoy the things that I do. I've ripped through him, telling him about the history of my past 5 years - 4 years at the time and how I've made myself sick and slightly mentally unstable by trying to do those things in 2007 and 2008. I've ripped through that younger member and I feel guilty about it now, because he'd still be a regular member if I didn't do that to him. I've also felt guilty about that, because I know that my role model wouldn't usually do something like that.
I feel that some of the younger members, not all of them and there are younger members that I feel comfortable interacting with on a regular basis - might give me a hard time, because they don't know what the heck I'm talking about when I talk about my special interests and they wouldn't give a rat's ass, anyways because they like things that they grew up with and the things that I like aren't their special interests and than they might keep ranting on in my own threads that I start myself about how I post about Mick Avory and The Kinks all day long....all day long without even thinking about my feelings and how I might feel when I come on here. After an incident like that happens, I get all hush hush about The Kinks and start complaining that I'm walking on eggshells also do to past experiences on here, and that nobody believes that I'm a Highly Sensitive Person and they think that my rank title and signature are both all a big joke, when I'm being very open and honest about myself here on WP, because I'm proud of that achievement.
The catch 22 is that I feel the need to come on here for at least 3 hours a day each day, because this is the only support system I feel that I have right now. Stepping Stones is fine, but an Aspie is hard to come across there.
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The Family Enigma