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my dad lecturing me about uni- he is still trying to control choices i make with regards to course changes and stick his nose where it does not belong. he also brought up the subject of romance and how i am not able to cope emotionally with the idea of it and he generally treats me as if i lack emotional maturity because i say i never want to experience a relationship with another. he also yelled at me for not doing uni full time and working at the same time and also for not telling my mother i was going out. and by going out he means to uni which i do at the same time every week. she started calling me at 5:50pm wondering where i was and then at 8:25 she calls and i tell her i am 5mins away and will be there soon and then she calls me 10mins later asking where i am! its not like i had to walk far from the bus stop at night either- it is literally 2 minutes away and down the road from where i live. jesus christ i am not allowed to have a life! whose parents panic because they arent home by 5:50? im 20 years old for christ sake!

I had to go with my Stepdad to pick up my borther and sister to school. Walking a long way and back again.

My parents are back.

Can I go a day without a woman over 30 years older than me try to make a move on me?

my dads friends came over. before they did he gave me a lecture about my hair and shoes because i have to dress well out of respect for them. i do not respect them. i find thier ethics and politics repugnant. also, as a woman, i find it offensive that i am told by society i should look pretty to please others. they are rich bosses and have no empathy for the working class or other oppressed groups at all. they are horrible people. my father also told me i am to have dinner with them and kiss them hello because they are friends. i dislike having to touch people i do not like. my father is also pressuring me to tutor their kids. i cannot wait till i move. i only pray centrelink gives me the means to do it.

I've been experiencing stomach cramps off and on for the past several days, and I don't know what exactly is causing them. I know it isn't gastroenteritis because the onset of that is rapid - it doesn't take this many days for it to manifest. Besides, I have shown no symptoms - no diarrhea, no vomiting (thank goodness) and I have been able to eat just fine, although my appetite is waning.

I'm thinking my problem is psychosomatic because I have been very stressed out lately, and my stomach doesn't hurt whenever I'm lost in my imaginary world. As soon as I snap back to reality, though, the cramps start up again. This has happened to me before in the past. There was always a trigger - something that frightened or stressed me out enough to cause my fear of vomiting to start acting up again and in turn causing my stomach to cramp up. But this time I can't think of any real trigger. I just remember one day I fell into one of my dark/morbid moods for seemingly no reason and I haven't felt like myself ever since then, and the stomach cramps started soon after that.

I lost my box of good art markers. It had all my nice grays and my skintones in there.
Also, my cool gray 20 is dead.
I has a sad.

Another plant in my front garden died

I didn't get to hang out with my brother today.

Being called weird. For some reason, I was bothered by it.

Oh well.

I didn't get as much done today in the ways of preparing for school as I had hoped. It's getting too late to get much done, and if I don't get some sleep soon, I won't have the energy to finish all that I need to tomorrow.

Drunk people waking me up

My parents where gone for a week. But now they are back.
Also It's Sunday already witch means tomorrow I got to go back to work.
I don't like my job.

my mum reminding me i have to go to easter celebrations at church(i dont even believe in god!) and that they are a week away and my dad and mum discussing whether or not i was going to a wedding in june. i hate these things because of the social pressure and the fact that all the people are horrid. i also hate them because i have to pretend to be somebody else- talkative, feminine, into dressing up with makeup, dresses, heels and the lot, i have to like modern mainstream music and all the rest. i feel like sh!t at these things. like there is something wrong with me or i have to be the child my parents wish they had. i never want to go to these things and i always say i will not go or that i will not wear makeup or heels but then my dad gets angry- really angry. he scares me. he's like twice my size and when he screams he seems to inflate, his eyes bulge and look all yellow and bloodshot and he starts calling me rude things, getting up close & using threats or he just skips the threats and moves on to action. and then i am forced to go and i have to pretend i am happy. im not. i hate easter. at least i will have moved out by june. until then i will try and lie low and not make people angry. 2 weeks and 2 days to go.

Being tired as usual