IsabellaLinton wrote:
Dylanperr wrote:
IsabellaLinton wrote:
New question:
Do you think you 'look' autistic in your childhood photos? I look odd in most of mine. I'm always pulling a face or else my body is twisted in odd shapes even when I'm standing. It always looks like I'm trying to disappear.
Yes because I am autistic and what do you mean by looking autistic?
I know that autism doesn't have a "look", and I'm not trying to say it does. I just notice that in all my photos I do stand out as being different in one way or another. I look very self-conscious and awkward or nervous. I don't look at the camera, I look very uncomfortable and it's like I'm trying to vanish or make a joke of myself all the time. I just wondered if other people see vulnerabilities in their photos too? This is definitely not my imagination. After puberty age there is so much pain and confusion in my eyes it breaks my heart.
Yes I see it - very clearly
and my mom used to literally insult and scream at me about it back then- ‘why do you look depressed? Why are you acting like an old kady? Why don’t you look at me properly? Etc’ n all the additional junk
am guessing from what you have shared that your mom was similar.
My dad was just as unhelpful and unhealthy in his realization that his daughter wasn’t ‘like everyone else’
Really glad I experienced that as now if I see someone blaming someone for not being exactly at their level of thinkingC stability, maturity, or understanding, I speak up.
And I know I make it a little more difficult for bullies to openly flaunt their a$$holery
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