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When my Dad shouted at me for no reason and shoved me (this was in public, I nearly collided with an old lady). It would have been bad enough, but I was in hospital the night before and he managed to push me where it hurt. I'm a grown woman and it's humiliating to be pushed about in public.

I just ruined another set of earphones. I have got to stop stimming with them (by twirling them around my finger).

I guess I'll just buy another pair on Tuesday...

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My nephew Coke needs to eat! Obviously we're related.

Being alive.

being behind on assignments. getting calls from centrelink. they make me edgy no matter the content. and also i got a call from a comrade asking me to do a book review for the website and i said yes but i should have said no because i dont know how to do that, well i do but not a marxist review. stupid me.

So in PE, we were doing this thing where some of us were blindfolded and had to be guided back by sounds. And I remember how I liked it back in Year 8, and so was going to enjoy it, but didn't do as well as I thought the second time.

what makes me unhappy today (somewhat) is the fact that i am happy today, but i was unhappy from the 18th May until today about the fact that my computer died.
i could not post about it while my computer was dead, and now i have a new computer which i like, i am happy, and so all the ranting and raving i could have posted over the last few days (if i was able), is now not worth posting.

........but i did have major hassles.

i learned that the large companies that sell computers ("Harvey Norman" and "Dick Smith" etc) are no longer selling computers which are modular, and it seems nowadays that one can only buy a completely intergrated computer where the cpu and motherboard reside within the monitor. the new computers are not upgradeable or serviceable by normal users.

i wanted a new tower with a motherboard with 16 gigs of ram and i did not need a sound card or a video card or a monitor or a keyboard or mouse ! !

if i wanted to buy a pre-assembled computer, it seems i would have to buy all the componentry (peripherals) as well in the package.

i "squared off" (i do not know what that means, but my father used it in situations like i was in) with the people in the store, and i said "so i am not able to upgrade this computer if any component in it needs to be upgraded", and they said "no".

i left and eventually got a conventional computer from an old contact i have, and i am quite happy with it.
it is sad that the computorial world is being dumbed down so seriously.

My backpack is soaked all the way through due to today's rain. My homework and all of my notes are all crumpled and smeared now.

On the bright side, IT'S RAINING!! !! !! !! !! !

As soon as I got back home today my hives came back.

There's a concert today featuring various K-pop bands/artists right here in the Bay Area, and I didn't know about it until it was too late! I heard from someone that it's free too (sponsored by Google)...

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My nephew Coke needs to eat! Obviously we're related.

First thing: I feel like I'm playing catch up in life And losing at it too.

Second thing:

For some reason I keep getting hit on by these incredibly materialistic guys (3rd one over the last week). The type that thinks if they throw money at you, you will date them and try to impress you with their BMW, thinking you will swoon. I don't know if they're hitting on me because I'm a foreigner or because I'm putting out the wrong kind of vibe.

I am not a materialistic kinda girl, ever. Give me the simple stuff in life any day. I need a guy I can talk to about real issues as well as have fun with and one who cares, not one that will throw money at me.

I hate it when these types of guys hit on me because I always come out of it feeling really, Really, REALLY yucky. Like there's something wrong with me.

I'm jealous of my younger brother. He picked up a pencil the other day and randomly decided to draw pictures of his favorite celebrities, and what do you know? He's just as good as a professional artist. No art classes, no practice. He's pretty much a savant. My dad even wants to take him to the art supply store to get really good supplies.

Me? I've been drawing my entire life and I'm not even half as good as my brother is. It deeply discourages me that I'm constantly being overshadowed by other people when it comes to my one great passion (art) in life. Is it too much to ask that I've always wanted to be good at one thing in life? One thing. I'd give up anything - a leg, my left arm, my ability to hear or speak, anything - if only I could be as good as a professional artist.

I'm still coughing up greenies. I'm seeing the doctor tomorrow.

Hmmm..
Lets see, so I slave over making a lasagne for these children who won't get out of my way whilst I am making it.
I burn myself in the process, then they come and eat it and then start whining at me about a part of the top being slightly hard, as if I actually care at all.
So I go to my computer to see a guy on the fourm I am staff on doesn't seem to listen, he's made the same topic 3 times in the wrong section and I keep moving it and telling him to stop but I guess some people don't get it. How hard is it to understand that tutorials go in the tutorials forum and questions go in the questions forum.



...Sorry to complain, I know I shouldn't dump my problems here, I prefer to seem nice, but this is better than causing damage to myself or the people around me(I am probably to nice to do that so I might just have raged and swore at them )

Okay, I'm done now

EDIT:
Seriously, he posted 2 more topics in the same wrong forum while I was writing this...
Oh how he is lucky staff members generally be respectful, because if I said what I am thinking I'd probably be demoted -.-

Now that I've calmed down, I feel like such a massive B-word for getting jealous over my younger brother's awesome art skills. I talked to my mom about it and she said I was being like a 10 year old whose sibling got a "cooler" toy for Christmas (which I agree with - jealousy is a childish emotion). She also said we're both talented, just in different art styles (mine is anime and his is realism). I'm really worried that my brother overheard our conversation. I hope he didn't.

I choose to ignore a bunch of school brats when they started calling me names and to not let it affect me, and it didn't :o So that made me quite content, i mean sure i could have walked up to them and beat them etc, but what good would that have done :/ Sorry if i sound arrogant but one of the few things that i'm confident in is my physical strength :x