someone had the nerve to put a pear in my backpack. when i saw the pear, i thought it fell out the bag, so i put it in the bag, with 3 apples. later, he told me he put it there. okay, that is just annoying. he was going through my belongings. granted, nothing interesting, expensive or important was in there. not many things were in there. but it's the concept. privacy. respect. mines. yours. do. not. touch. and he told me that, in an attitude like he saved my life or something. so i told him not to do that again. the backpack is dirty. and i threw away not just the pear, but the apples too. they can't be washed clean enough to eat, after directly touching the backpack. there has to be a bag.
the woman from aikido that told me "aikido is my favorite thing" did not RSVP on monday. the past six weeks, there have not been a monday aikido. the wednesday aikido is at 7am. have to wake up before 5am to get there on time. have to take the bus. sometimes the bus comes late. sometimes it is raining. sometimes i get all the way there and it is cancelled. and sometimes the instructor scheduled to teach, is not there. it is just aggravating, annoying, frustrating. edgy, moody, irritable, sad, angry, annoyed.
totally obsessed with homophobes from san diego. 2004 san diego was so homophobic. when i think of it, i feel like gorging. often gorge. it got under my skin. they got under my skin. no apology, much less reparations.
tripping and falling on sidewalk
extroverts are sometimes totally dramatic/theatrical. they act like every waking moment must be an Oscar winning performance. they act like every time they have a thought or emotion, it is the latest greatest scientific invention. how do you compete with someone that acts like they have an unlimited metabolism? they do not have to "pick your battles". they are not afraid. they identify what they want and go get it. ruthlessly.