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My throat really, really hurts. It woke me up.
I bet that if I go see my doctor about it, it'll just be a virus and he won't be able to do anything.

I'm just going through a tremendous amount of stress right now, and I don't think it will let up any time soon.

Went into work this morning to be told that the manager had left while I was away. He was the only one there that I felt some sort of connection with. Didn't even get to say goodbye. The new manager is an idiotic moronic belittling control freak, and the new assistant manager is an arse-licking patronizing b***h.

Farewell nice job.

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....And Nunchucks are my friends.

I don't even feel safe on WP anymore.

I'm feeling very irritable.

This:
One of my roommates came home from his second job. My door was open and he has to pass by my room to get to his. I said hello and was excited to show him some dust masks and safety goggles I found for a project at work we are tackling together. (We are also co-workers--I guess technically I am his supervisor. I never make an issue out of it. If I need him to do something I just ask like a human being and he does the same.) So, he got really (okay, somewhat......) annoyed and said angrily, "Don't talk about esta m**rda at home. Talk to me about that sh*t at work tomorrow."

I was dispirited because I was trying to reach out and show him that I went the extra mile for our project. Looking back I think I failed to consider the locus of the following factors: 1) His seven year old daughter (who has an endearing fondness for me) was standing beside him, 2) In the work environment he most likely perceives me as possessing superior status, 3) The house we share is mostly his space,...as in I pretty much live with him, 4) I make significantly more money than him and only work one job.

Putting these elements together took me a few hours of shame spiraling to figure out. I think he perceived that I was trying to assert my status privilege or some kind of dominance in his house in front of his daughter. I think that I unconsciously adopted a work "way of being in the world" which left him feeling emasculated in front of his daughter.

I think I may need to apologize but I don't exactly know how to translate into allocentric.

I was digging in the garage for a DVD I wanted to watch, and while I managed to find it (plus a really neat drawing that I did awhile back), I hurt my back from moving boxes. Ow.

I am not unhappy, I am thoroughly livid. Barely avoiding punching walls and doors and whatnot. That bleeping DHL guy managed to come in the 30 min gap in the day, the ONLY day, when there's no one home. He texts angrily that he'll try getting there at the end of his round (in horrible Norwegian) but I'll probably have it tomorrow. Tomorrow, because he called the moment he was at the door instead of 30-60 minutes ahead of time. UPS offers to deliver to place of work and if noone is home they deliver it at the post office so you can fetch it yourself when you get home. If I don't get my jacket today this is the last time I *ever* use DHL. Period.

i dislike competition and also groups of 3. i never know where my place in them is and person 3 is always somebody i don't know and i feel awkward because i do not know them even if they are nice and i feel sort of like im not supposed to be there. i guess it is more accurate to call me person 3. 3rd leg, 5th wheel. im not being fair to person 1. they did try. they always do. it's really me that is the problem.
also the nominations for these honour awards for the queer community closed yesterday at 5pm. their website said it was going to close tomorrow at 5pm. i don't understand what happened. i was on that site after 5pm yesterday and they were still open. i really wanted to nominate my comrade or the queer activist group im with because they both deserve it but i decided to wait till today so the group could talk it over. i shoulda just done it. i am kicking myself. feeling like a general f@#$-up.

1. Still no benefits, and no idea when I'll have any money to eat/bathe/stay warm/etc.

2. I owe money on my TV licence, and I also owe money to eBay I can't pay as Paypal has my money on hold.

3. Had an appointment with Citizens Advice to try to avoid getting my electricity being cut off, but I missed the appointment thanks to metro's running late, then metros being off between stops and the replacement bus service being late.

4. My internet gets turned off on Monday, I can't afford internet but I somehow have to find a way to pay for it to stay in touch with my boyfriend, even if I could afford it the whole thing is going to be a pain to get sorted out as the old contract was in my ex's brothers name and new one will be in my name, but both being for the same address is going to complicate things.

Being treated like rubbish.

Found some really nice stuff on eBay, but signing into Paypal to pay for it was a nightmare. Thankfully I managed to get it sorted out in the end, but I'm still feeling residual frustration.

there is no hot water and i am in desperate need of a shower. it is almost 12am and i need to be up early tomorrow. i wonder if it is too late to wash my hair in a tub or something. i feel gross.

Scraped some of my toes on the asphalt while walking outside. Now they're bleeding.

I "have" to go out to lunch today. Family members birthday, oh joy.