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my aunt just called. she has not spoken to me in 25 weeks since i moved out and now she calls to pretend to me that she cares! this is so offensive. does she think me a fool? so false! she wanted to take me out for my birthday and says my uncle wants to as well! he hasn't called me at all either! 25 weeks! they are liars. i know what they think of me for moving out- why do they pretend otherwise? i dont want to be near them. i know what they say about me. i know what they will say to me. liars.

and i am behind in my work.

went to visit my little sister today. my parents were there of course. my mother kept asking me if i was a lesbian and if i moved away to be with my girlfriend and my dad kept teling me what a disgrace it was that i moved away while unmarried and how it was bad i wasnt moving in with a family member(but not them, they dont want me) to rectify this. they also kept saying they would come over. it scares me so much when they say that. i dont feel safe with them knowing where i live and i dont feel safe around them. and my house is so rainbow it isnt funny. god i hate the police. surely they must have gone out of their way to look me up? couldnt they just be tardy like usual? this was my safe space. and my mother kept telling me how horrible i look. my face is scarred, my skin is dry, blemished and brown with freckles, im too thin, i look terrible and who would ever want me? im glad i dont live there anymore. no wonder i have so many body image issues. i felt miserable and i hated myself for it because im not supposed to care what other people think or how i look.

I can't go to the free turkey dinner at the church, because I'm sick.

Been doing laundry all day and packing for our trip. I don't want to touch another pair of shorts again!

And I'm still sick.

I saw Frankenweenie and it wasn't as good as I had hoped.

Also, I think I'm coming down with the cold that my parents have.

Out of long suppressed but never dormant rage, I emailed an angry message to an ex-friend. As soon as I hit send I knew I should have left well enough alone. I don't want any contact with the person, I just wanted them to know I was hurt and angry. Which is not productive anyway, so... sigh. It was childish and now I'll have to deal with whatever response (or non response) I get.
Good thinking Cozy.

I was woken up in the morning unaware that there were a group of garden workers renovating our backyard, so I took an old blanket and slept in the lounge room and woke up at 11 AM.

My hair. I tried to get a hairdresser to fix the ends a bit today but I don't think it did much. Why can't I try a new style without it all going wrong?

Also my inbox on OKC. I'm scared to open it because I know there's an angry man in there.

i handed my assignment in 45minutes late and about 400 words over the limit. i dont even know if it is properly referenced. i am tired. i also looked at my exam timetable. first week 2 exams within 1 day of each other. not cool.

One of my group members told me that I was annoying because I kept asking them what I needed to do. Unfortunately I didn't have much of a choice because I was kind of getting omitted from the group, and the criteria has been deliberately made ambiguous, so apparently as I often find myself not knowing what to do, I have to keep talking to everybody about it.

I went to the dentist today, not only to I have to get a night guard to protect my teeth from all my stressed out grinding. And I have a cavity. The first one I've gotten in my permanent teeth.

Going to the laundry mat because my dryer is broken.

...The people across the road are back, with all their delightfulness.