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im feeling blue about semester ending and about other things too. medicare doesnt cover phychologist visits. my uni offers free councelling but thats not what i need from them but i might still go ask them for advice as much as i hate them and see what happens. i really need help. i realised that since semester is ending i might not get to see the guy i like again. we might not be in the same class next year. im going to miss him. i really like spending time with him. he is really nice. i hope i get over him. i dont want to spend my holiday missing a guy and being all mopey. but he's so great. also the weather had better not be like this tomorrow of all days.

Lots of things. Another day, another misunderstanding. At least it got sorted promptly this time I guess. I don't think we'll ever get back what we had before all of that happened though. I've even lost that now

The dodgeball game my class played in PE today had uneven teams. One team had more athletic kids, so my team ended up losing.

father calls to tell me off for not being married. again. i swear if i hear "this is not our way" "it is tradition", "if i want to tell you i want to see you married off then i will." one more time & he dies. and they keep saying they're going to come down here and it's like i want to scream "DON'T YOU F!@#ING COME DOWN HERE YOU PSYCHOS!" but i value my life now. i like not getting the sh!t kicked out of me if i make people too angry. so i'm polite. and my dad said i walked past him in redfern one day and i didnt see him and i dont know if he was spinning crap or telling the truth but it's fuelling my paranoia. sticking to the backstreets from now on.

Suddenly losing a colony to the Believers in SMAC. Thankfully it was easy to retake, but that faction was still being a pest.

I really really hate colds. I have a blocked and runny nose, a rough throat, stuff stuck in my throat that I have to cough, and they expect me to go to school with this!

The electricity has been out all day, 12 hours. They were doing scheduled line work but we didn't get any prior notice (probably because we're not Essential Energy customers). Now I'm rushing to get my washing done and dried at 8pm at night.

was 10minutes late for a caucus because the trains in the city were out.

I was this close to getting pulled over for speeding this morning. The cop car is probably gonna be there waiting for me this afternoon. Might take a different way home.

not getting what i wanted done on my presentation.

also the Labour right at my uni are trying to take away the right of women to vote for the womens officer unless they go to womens collective! these women pretending to be feminists are taking away the right of women to vote! is this not irony? theyre trying to make it out as if this will increase autonomy and things but this is bollocks. it makes them representative of the 5 people who might go to collective meetings and thats it. what the hell? the new womens officer is somebody i thought was ok but it turns out i am a crappy judge of character and she is a right wing Labour hack. the dirtiness of this might go deeper seeing as she was running on labour left and the greens ticket but not campaining or even telling people this is what she wanted to do. dodgy as.

Same patrol car passed me on the highway today . It would have been funny if they turned off in the same direction I was going.

Today: I thought I was going to get sent to the other office again tomorrow but I'm relieved I'm not. I would have started complaining otherwise. It pisses me off that they don't take into account my slim petrol budget when deciding these things. I can only afford to drive there and back so many times in a week. Two days a week over there is more than enough. They certainly won't give me another pay rise to cover the cost. Also, word is that the young guy who works over there is considering going to uni full time when his TAFE finishes after this year. If he does that guess who could possibly get a "promotion" to working there full time? Not for less than $100 extra take home pay each week I won't. f**k, if they need me they're gonna have to pay. I certainly don't deserve to be put at a financial disadvantage by having my workplace become 30km further away.

getting more behind on assignment every minute.

We were marking this test we did the other day in science, and I became worried about the time because I wanted to get out of school and to my Nanna's house as soon as possible and not miss the bus, but when the bell had gone and I was worried and complaining and other people were complaining about me complaining I gave up on the bus and texted m Nanna as king her to come and get me. I fee a bit guilty, but I just wasn't in the mood for waiting ages for the next bus, then getting on it and it being full of people.

Today.

i have one more day to finish this thing and i've not gotten half way yet. goodness me, i'm so terribly behind. it is so very dull too! if i think it dull then how are the class to react to it? i shall read it in a monotone and look at the desk the entire time. actually i am starting to panic about this. i really start to hyperventillate, babble and shake when i intervene in class discussion and with oral presentations i start to rock and i cannot make myself cease the action and it is just embarrassing. this assignment is a mixture between presentation and intervention. i am going to hyperventillate, shake, rock, babble and shame myself in front of people. oh my god what if i start stuttering?

I have to give myself an injection every day for 30 days and I'm afraid of needles.

I had a hysterectomy so I have to inject Lovenox every day to prevent blood clots. I did it 10 times so far.