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yesterday

My sister

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my thingo is tomorrow and i havent even finished yet and it is 10:48pm. im freaking out lots more now. i know some of this info backwards but i know im going to get up there and forget the lot. i dont know how to address question 2 and i dont know what multimedia to include and my computer doesnt have power point so i cant do that so i'll have to get to uni early tomorrow and do one and christ im not ready for this.
and my face looks botchy because i had an breakout and its dying down.

damned spherical eggs! i have posted about this before, but i am absolutely enraged at the 2 eggs i cooked for lunch. a normal boiled egg has a runny yolk and a set albumen, and the yolk is runniest at the thin end of the egg, and it is thickest (sometimes hard) at the fat end of the egg.

that is why i always sit my eggs in the eggcup thin end up.

but today i could not determine the orientation of the eggs due to the fact that they were spherical to the unaided eye, and as luck would have it, i put BOTH the eggs in the egg cup the wrong way around, and i cut the bottoms of them off to be met with hard set yolk and and the whole thing dissolved into a farce.

"small" things can spoil my day sometimes.

My kitty is at the vet getting neutered and I probably have to wait at least 4 more hours before I can go pick him up.

i'm kinda upset right now. this is the last day of classes for uni and i only had one tutorial as opposed to the 2 tutes and a lecture i usually go to. i did an oral presentation and i still feel nervous after it. i didnt freak out to the extent i thought i would but i did start rocking uncontrollably. this is also the last day that youthgroup operates out of the usual place in newtown because we're moving to freaking chippendale next week. i dont know if i should go say goodbye. i want to hug the building but i know this is not considered socially acceptable. i feel like i need chocolate. this friday feels wrong. my timetable is stuffed up and im going to miss uni so much. im going to miss my classes(1/2 of them) and the students(mostly). i feel lost and i dont know what to do. i think i want to curl up in the dark and stay there.

I epically failed at spaghetti & meatballs.

Spaghetti & meatballs.

Buzzy headache.

my uncle called and started pressuring me into taking a ride to church tomorrow. he is insisting that im ignoring his calls which is partly true but partly not since i dont wait near my phone for him to call and so do miss it when it happens. i have to go because it is my grans 3rd year anniversary. im way over her death. i dont understand why people are mourning her. i mean i miss the woman but ive made peace with her death. why are people acting like it is yesterday? shouldnt people be at the lets-remember-the-good-things stage? when i think of her i think of her spaghetti, her blue dress with the flowers, basil used as air freshener in the toilet, walking to the fruit market, walking to the park, me putting no smoking signs on her bed, triangle cheese, biscuits with the cream filling, minties, kitkats, her villiage dialect, the way she said "owmiya wu tawiya" when instructing us to fold our clothes, being taught to sew by her, she gave me my first books and my first readers digest(from the '80s) as a child- i dont think of the cancer and her death. its in the past and its not part of her life.

i pulled a thread that was bothering me and my shirt lost a whole sleeve in the process.

I can go for months at a time eating an incredibly healthy diet, but the moment I bring two boxes of cookies into my apartment, binge-eat them both in one sitting and be stuck spending the rest of the weekend in self-loathing exercise bulimic mode. I don't know if I will ever be able to have a healthy enough relationship with food to be able to enjoy good things in moderation. It's all or nothing with me.

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