out of 34+ cousins....18+ uncles/aunts, granduncles, grandparents, cousins second, third and fourth, you name it, and same here, only a single one of them outwardly strikes me as aspielike. one, and that is going out on a limb.
it's solitary alright, but the gf stating she could "literally not care less" (or something) soothes it.
i seem to meet new family all the damn time, usually when a parent hauls me to some dusty corner of tijuana and asks me to greet people i have never seen in my life, soon expecting rapport as if i'd known them all my life. uh huh.
at least, it seems that way. they think i'm boring and who cares?
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