Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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I dropped a cookie with cream inside without realizing it, and later on I stepped on it and made a mess.

I made a very delicious prawn salad, but I think I put too much onion or garlic, and that made my stomach sick.

i will post 2 separate posts about what made me unhappy today (in descending order of severity)

i felt electrocuted with sadness, and although i am not supposed to feel guilt (which is normally the case), i did feel guilt today.

when i first got this house (11 months ago), i noticed that it i was in an area where a cockatoo roosting site was nearby. there are hundreds of cockatoos in the area, and i used to feed cockatoos at a house i once owned that was resumed by the local council, and i enjoyed interacting with them.

i bought a bag of sunflower seeds to feed them (here), but they did not seem to recognize the seeds as food. i cast the seeds over the back lawn and they just watched indifferently and they did not respond, so i gave up trying to feed them.

4 days ago, i noticed that some of them were browsing my front lawn, so i capitalized on the opportunity to try feeding them again. i threw out about 5 handfuls (handsfull (spellchecker rejects the correct usage)) of seeds and one curious cocky nibbled a seed and found it extremely palatable, and somehow, the information spread to the other cockatoos, and they all started to feverishly feed on the seeds and i thought "excellent!", but i also thought that i would try to coax them to the backyard to feed because it is safer. the road my house is adjacent to is not very busy, but it has an 80km speed limit which is dangerous for the silly birds.

cockatoos are quite smart, but they are ungainly fliers and they seem like aimless white rags blowing about in a squall when they are flying short distances. they seem to get excited and become unaware of potential danger. so, 2 days ago, some were perched in the trees in my back yard, and they recognized the yellow labeled bag of seeds which i was holding, and i cast about 15 handsfull of seeds onto the back lawn and they all flew down and ate the seeds (i made a video of it). there were many birds. too many really.

today, i cast about 20 handsfull of seeds into my back yard, and they again busily crunched them up (the sound is hilarious). after i went inside, i was standing near a window to the front lawn, and i noticed many cockatoos there as well, even though there were no seeds there. they seemed to be exceptionally unruly and they were browsing close to the road. one particularly excited cockatoo hung upside down from a branch that could barely support it's weight, and he was flexing his sulphur crest and screeching madly.

every now and again, he dropped off the tree and flew in an erratic fashion (barely missing the ground), and he flew out over the road at an altitude that was too low, and then he returned to the tree and i became worried. i said to him "don't do that you silly little fellow!!" but he took no notice.

after a while i sat back down at the computer (i thought i was worrying needlessly about the fact that he flew at a low altitude over the road because i decided he knew no cars were coming).

after about 15 minutes, i again stood up and went to the window, and i saw 2 people running toward a white object on the side of the road about 20 meters away, and they picked it up and i saw his sulfur crest and i went beserk with sadness. i can hardly typoe this no. he was dead and maybe it was my fault. even if it was not my fault, i still felt so bad for him. i had seen how he was so very alive and involved in his world, and i developed an affection for him and now he is gone. yeah i have to stop typing because i am again crying about it.

the second post was to be about a mouse, but he/she is no danger (yet).

here is a video of that fateful day that i began my association with the cockatoos.
my narration is very poor because when i am alone, i never talk to myself, and even though i intended to provide a comprehensive narrative, i still felt like i was talking to myself so i left out many words that would have completed my sentences.

anyway, i am almost sure that the cockatoo that got hit by the car was the one who i told he was going on youtube. the one who's face coincidentally is the still shot for this clip.


[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sm2fHxeKJfU&list=UUpB1H594Ek2H_hWBxJ7ja7g&index=2[/youtube]

The fact that my eyesight has gone all blurry and I'm knackered!

I am feeling down today for some reason.

Of all the years I've been posting here now, I've only met about 5 people who aren't total asshats.

9 out of 10 members here rub me the wrong f*****g way.

Playing the waiting game to see if I have got this job or not. Nerve-wracking stuff.

you are similar to a b***h if you consider to be me to be an "ass hat"
i have tried to talk to you on many occasions but you have shown that you consider yourself to be above me so i will never try to talk to you again. it does not bother me.

I somehow managed to bite the bottom-side root of my tongue pretty badly when eating, and it's still aching. I don't know how I did it.

I have to go to work today.

My school's shuttle bus broke down while on route to the main campus where I take my business class at.
By the time I arrived there, class had already started.

So far... it's almost 2AM, this downed my mood because I have to get up early today and I know that I'll get scolded for something that is surely not my fault... most likely followed by the one scolding me not understanding what I'm trying to explain and cutting me off when talking, just like always, which will stress me so I'll be inable to further explain what I wanted to tell the person, resulting in investing more time to think (phrasing the sentences) and silence, which will be interpreted as impolite behaviour ("not wanting to cooperate"), which then again results in more scolding. This will stress me, I'll forget what I wanted to say and will lose track of the conversation because the other person will just go on talking about this and that. I'll finally give up and just listen to complaints.
I'm totally not looking forward to... uh... today.

I predict I'll post in this thread another time today just to confirm that the situation took place just like I explained it here.

Warning: rant

The worst thing that could ever happen to an Aspie happened to me today: my schedule was changed without me knowing. Literally. I walked into Zoology and wasn't even on the roster, and it turned out that they gave me Health instead AFTER telling me that I had Zoology first period.

I'm STILL SICK!! !

My legs have been hurting non-stop all day, and going to rugby made it worse.

My sister told my parents that I didn't wanna play rugby (not true at all) because I took a two minute break from running nonstop for an hour because my legs hurt.

My legs still hurt.

I've been saddled with my sister's chores because she refuses to do them like a reasonable person would (at least my allowance gets doubled ).

My essay results for AP Euro...

/short rant

Heard nothing yesterday, so still waiting for job news. I hate waiting. I'm really not good at it! I'm all jittery & nervous.

I've got a sore chest and a bad cough. Self-inflicted. Bloody ciggies! I need to make a serious attempt at quitting them for good - I'm sick of wasting my money, wrecking my health, and having to stand outside in the cold to smoke.

I need all the coffe I can get this morning.

I only just spotted slave's reply to my post , therefore didn't respond. Thanks for your condolences and no, this site is fine, i was just in a bad mood