Reading again about asd, spd, ptsd, giftedness, and try to remember objectively how I was as a kid. Whether I have asd or I'm gifted, there's spd and probably still some ptsd and phobias. What "belongs" where could help. However I don't think it will change the facts, and that I can't have/live a "normal" way. Whatever it is.
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"Ever since I was a child, I’ve never allowed myself to get too close to people. I’ve avoided emotional attachment. Perhaps I’ve been so afraid of death and dying that any connection just seemed like a bad thing, something that wouldn’t last." Dana Scully - Christmas Carol.