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Lung disease

Btw, another member of my family has just been diagnosed with the same disease I have.

Yay!

We can compare notes.

We can have a competition on who's gonna live longer.

I think I'll win

both my gf and i have uncles that currently are hospitalized.

mine just needs to stop drinking so damn much. my grandparents are visiting from mexico for a fw weeks. the last thing they need is to see him in that state.

I won't wait, but I will be patient when there will be a time I get obsessed on things usually I easily gave up with.

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Donkey(ass) burgers are a legitimate gourmet delicacy in China.

If computer games are so bad. then do away with computers entirely.

Sometimes I do think that there's a conspiracy against me. That if I had actually made things happen the way I craved them to happen as 'not overly extragavent' as the requests were* many of the 'bad things' which happen in life, wouldn't have happened b/c I prevented them indirectly by having achieved that much.

But b/c life didn't want things which are 'bad to cease' it has made it so that I am ever so dissatisfied and quick to slip into misery. This is one reason I hate having to ask for something; I really do believe that even the most simple requests are asking for too much and hence the default state is accomplishing an unwritten quota of like doing 90% of things by yourself and ~10% via interaction with other ppl given certain parameters.

* (high level degrees in some science related field, money being distributed among my family whilst I am 'gloriously smart, an attractive girlfriend who I would become a compatabile husband to, leaving in a different part of the city, and being able to do anything which is asked of a functional adult superflously well, all before I reached 25 etc,etc----note I'm asking for a mansion or sports care or designer clothes .

I hate how so much of what I associate with school goes back to a certain math course, my past 'manifestation' of an absence of self-confidence and the factors which were outside of my control (other ppl's attitudes and unpleasant to-say-the-least teachers) in the time during two specific schools which I almost feel like saying was a major waste of time if it weren't for my belief that I have to be sympathetic to anything and everything if I am to live to see the next day/morning.

I wonder what it would be like, or what's the closest I could get to the 'unchurched childhood' epoch I had wherein I believe out of a certain craving that I might find a pristine-ness there which could finally help me hurdle over even the most difficult aspects of this math course I'm taking like trigonometric functions and actually studying the course well,now that I'm almost ~1/2 way through it.

If it weren't for a maybe now superstitious manifestation of 'not using others as a means to an end' even non-humans I'd place a picture of a 'teal deer' here.

I feel ambivalent about what my sense of humor is like and what humor means to me. I assume freedom after the math course including from the superstition that mentioning it will 'jinx' things for me.

I don't know what the weather is going to do today. I guess I could stay home this morning, get out my art supplies and experiment with colour. Learn to spend the day at home instead of going to different stores.

Twinkle, twinkle, little star. Power = i^2*R

I should start writing a story soon, see how long I can keep it going before I decide to start over X)

I feel broken somehow. Hopefully I can reassemble myself, like putting together a skeleton.