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I am very sick,

I am very depressed,

Words escape me, the dread is unreal, I can't express or compute this pain.

Hug me ImAnAspie,

If I tried to put into words what I feel, I think I would be labeled attention seeking, these feelings are evil and represent death.

((((((((((((dcj)))))))))))

I am still kinda here.

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Feel free to talk to me, if you wish.

Every day is a gift- cherish it!

"A true, true friend helps a friend in need."

This is some therapeutic randomness,

she's just a ass

Saw someone deeply triggering twice today. First time while I'm blowing my nose in the washroom, he enters. I'm wearing not only what I think were jeans meant for females but a collared shirt of sorts with things ppl who my dad knew in high school wrote in when he graduated.

'Tribalistic' aggression in me, "I admit, activated. Power fantasy of Thomas Jane version of 'The Punisher' fighting 'The Russian' did not ensue. Guilt in his eyes?. That ____ had a second job of sorts as a math teacher for years and was one major element in the toxic environment which has made me be in ~+6 aggravating years of not-always fun post-secondary education. What one person who I regret in a way having done a favor for said about Asperger's syndrome being annoying sticks with me right now;o much work to do, so many learning impairments or maybe it's just the non-presence of procedural knowledge and cognitive factors affecting it like lackluster spatial intelligence. I'm really considering to eventually ask for the neuropsychological assessment which was done on me, for me to see.

Saw a foreign movie where I kid you not, a child was not acting when he had 'do #2' and it was filmed ... -____- ...

Saw a video on the Youtube channel Wisecrack about ~'is it right to not vote' and soon after a video on the Cracked Youtube channel ~'Honest commercials: if the meat industry told you the truth'. B/c real life horrors and pains are 'more at harmony'/ match my usual mind set on a day when a 'fantastical exaggeration' of sorts of horror, done mainly for commercialized priorities is done.

Friday a mid-term test which I would like to attain more than a passing grade on. B/c sticking to minimals is getting me into trouble. Happy Halloween and I imagine this being said in the voice of Jackie Earle Haley as Rorschach.

Afraid to mention things at times b/c I fear a consequence ('metaphysical fueled and/or backed' ?) of what I fear and associate with something I mention 'popping up' in the worst way. I remind myself of help I received, a sheet on 'unhelpful thinking styles' and a chart which is handy for engaging with them.

Cognitive (distortions(?)). 'Evidence based' approaches to engaging with the mind, rather new to me, I'm rather embarrassed to admit. Years now an .m.o. based on working via 'induction' and/or assumptions fueled by religiously and/or spiritually based factors relevant to a theory of mind?. Whether it be harmatiological notions based mainly on Catholicism in a less cartoonish take on guilt or thinking in terms of 'non-presence' like in Daoism and 'non-presence and compassion even in spite of..' like in Buddhism, such concepts have been more familiar to me than the empirical and epistemic reliability of searching for evidence like in science, for which being accountable to and/or responsible is arguably less difficult or something like that.

Not taking things so seriously...such a tricky thing whether it be science or religion. D--- 30% weight on a mid-term exam.

I'm not going to an infernal after-life in less than 24 hours for having expressed this. Happy Halloween.

Ticked off for how I can't find my student ID/ bus pass at the moment and admit to giving into expressing myself/indulging in acting on my negativity on this particular day.

Scrape.. scrape.. scrape.. and of, the wallpaper comes..

I think I knew this before but then forgot: how to not be nervous around people - no matter what you do or what happens someone won't kill you, the worst they can do is beat you up; so if you know what the worst thing is you don't have to be afraid of anything. If you embarrass yourself and everyone laughs at you; it will be okay and just continue to not worry about people will forget about it. You cant be harmed by other peoples thoughts. Youve got as much right as anyone to be alive.Also if someone does kill you they will be put in prison so you still win in the end. Don't be afraid of social situations because if you know the worst thing you can handle all the rest that may happen. Always continue.

I want to go home and crochet.