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^ Me.

'I don't get it, Rachel. How can you be so intelligent, and still do this to yourself?' - many people, many times.

I don't think mental illness is something you can outsmart.
I certainly don't believe I can outsmart myself.
I'm fighting myself here, it's an even match.

So why does it feel like I'm losing?
Why does it feel like every 'winning' stretch I had was a trick? Pacify me so I won't fight back.
And if it is an even match, do I have to do this forever?

Well of course I have to do this forever. I have always known, I'll have to do this for as long as I'm alive.

So god damn me. Because I can fight back but my best isn't enough.
It's like I don't really want to win, and maybe that's true.
I want to say help me but nobody can.
I can't even help myself.

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Tooth and Nail - If that's what it takes. I WON'T be beaten!!

I love hot dogs.

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Feel free to talk to me, if you wish.

Every day is a gift- cherish it!

"A true, true friend helps a friend in need."

My life doesn't look like it's getting any better soon...

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Goldblum is back for Jurassic World 2?

Bloody cold callers!!

I've had three calls in the last hour or so badgering me about my energy supplier. I hate having to lie in these situations about not being the householder - I usually tell them the landlord lives in Spain or Malta, but one of these people even asked me for the contact number in Malta. What the hell does one do about this?

I have a feeling that I'm going to have a very good summer. I'll be visiting my parents at least twice a month. I remember last summer when I didn't visit them at all for mental health reasons. When someone wrecks havoc on your mental health, it's hard to be around them.

I burnt my tongue a few days ago and it is annoying me.

Had a computer scare this morning. Thought my laptop's wireless hardware was broken, but fortunately it was just a problem with the router in the basement. Whew.

I said I'd never post here again, but UGGGHH. Kura where are you I need a kitty hug.

I really gotta kill that tarantula living under my bed.

I dig scars.