Okay so my sister is going to have her second child in a week or two. I don't care what anyone thinks, I am not happy about this at all. Basically I live with my mother in New York and have had to take care of her and the house since my father left us over 10 years ago. Mom and I have worked very hard (through many tough spots) to pay off the mortgage and get other major housework done. I pretty much have had to work so my two younger sisters could go to college (both got running scholarships) and have lives of their own. I am 31 and my one 30 yera old sister lives in Iowa with her husband and one son and my 27 year old sister lives with her boyfriend near us. I know that society says that you're supposed to be happy when someone gets married/has kids but I am very upset that my sisters get to have sex lives and I don't, especially after all of the work I did for all of them. My mother is pretty much done with men and is not social herself. She knows I have problems but never seems to encourage me for anything. Anytime that I complain about not having a girlfriend or whatever she always says "Oh stop..." It gives me the impression that she cares more about her daughters than me. At any rate, my sister will be coming over soon with the new baby and all hell will break loose because we have to clean, separate the dogs (whom I usually watch in my back living room), etc. Once again, everyone expects me to be happy about this but I am sick of pretending to be happy about something that I don't beleive in. Yes, I beleive people should be free to do what they want and not submit to this bioligical and Christian slavery. It just doesn't seem fair that my sisters get to live their selfish little lives (and they are a bit selfish actually) while I seem to get no reward out of all of this except for the video games that are my passion. It kind of sucks is all.
23 Jul 2010, 11:09 am
