If it helps you that much, you probably do have adhd, and just don't realize it. One of the most devastating aspects is the inability to self motivate. Thoughts about the future don't create motivational mood states like they do in otherwise healthy people which is why medication is so necessary. I have normal goals compared to people my age, the only difference is, thinking about them will not motivate me like it will motivate them.
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