Hi DiabloDave363. I am getting ready to go to bed, so if you post back, and I don't respond, please realize it just means I went to bed. I will read this thread tomorrow.
I am sorry you feel down. There have been a couple times in the past where I felt like I could not face the future. But time has a way of healing things---though it can take some time.
Your life is young. You are a special human being. You are at a time in life where it is a transition into adulthood---and that can be frustrating and confusing sometimes. But we all go through this time. And we learn from it. We often get down ourselves---but it is a learning experience. Please try to relax and allow your future a chance.
There will be opportunities. Sometimes we just have to look awhile for them. You have interests---there are ways to make those interests work for you. You are not a failure by any means. You speak intelligently on these threads, and I highly respect you for that.
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"My journey has just begun."