Have you ever had symptoms of psychosis?

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Have you ever had symptoms of psychosis? Like hallucinations or delusions for example.

I have suffered from delusional thinking as far back as I can remember, but I've never had hallucinations. I also have severe feelings of Depersonalization and Derealization.

And, sometimes I do not recognize myself in a mirror, but I also have face blindness.

When I lost my job in the middle of winter(in Minesota)was new to the area and didnt know how to find another job...had recently been "dosed" with LSD(a few weeks earlier, someone who was supposed to be my "friend" druged my drink)I had no money saved up and was about to be evicted and was embarrased to ask my parents for money(again)...I had what was called a "psychotic break"

I stopped eating,wouldnt leave the house for a week,stayed in bed...thought someone had gotten into my apt. and turned the gas on, so I was being "poisened"...I finnally went out to a bar and met soneone that I invited home because I believed he was a serial killer and would put me out of my misery(so I wouldnt have to kill myself)I thought he had a wooden leg and was a Vietnam vet(he was 22! and this was in 1987)....turned out that he was a really nice guy who helped me get into a psyc program...we ended up dating for over a year...until I was mentally sound enough to continue my self-destructive drinking and ended the relationship....(still feel guilty about that)...

I had dellussional thinking most of my life,(I am an alian...God wants me to kill myself to protest mans inhumanity to man,I have a genitic anomily which does not allow me to feel "normal" joy in life,my mother is hiding my things and wants me to go crazy ,I was a witch in a "past-life") but this was as close to "insain" as I ever want to be...very scary....

There was a time I was closely involved with an "acute paranoid delusional schizophrenic". It seems to be almost contagious because I was just as confused as her after a while. Their magical, deluded version of reality can be so exciting and beautiful yet intricately meshed with real life. It gets hard to discern between reality and the fantasy that incessantly plays in the background. After a while paranoia and fatigue took over and the only thing stopping me from "ending it all" was the thought that if I killed my link to reality then only the desusional world would reamain. Well that's what I get for being mentally submissive.

The funny thing is that all the confusion and paranioa left when she did and wonderful cold, hard reality came back.

I have delusions of winning the Lottery and becomming a Hippie. Than I feel down in the Mouth, because the reality is that I would make a terrible Hippie, no matter how Free or Wealthy I'd be. And even if I didn't have to worry about the prospect of the Work Force, I would still be too Stodgy to be a Hippie. Than that whole Hippie Delusion starts all over, again. I'd love to find a way to stop the delusions, because they always end on a Blue Note.

Than I Google up some Images of Routemasters, and than I feel all Nice and Jolly again, within 20 Seconds.