What do you love to do? What are your passions/interests ? And have they opened new doors for you or created an achievements you are proud of ? I don't post much here anymore, I used to post here more but sttill unfrequently.
Some of my interests are numismatics(study of money), learning japanese, magic tricks, and fitness. I also like to cycle.
I hate bragging and I don't want to sound like I'm bragging or anything. So I try not to feel proud of what I've accomplished in life. Because I feel like it's bragging, but I heard there's a difference. Do you struggle with this?
I just want to feel proud of what I've achieved or accomplished in life and it didn't hit me until the other day that I have achieved something worthwhile. I have depression as well and it's drove me to almost attempt suicide many times. I just felt like nothing was worthwhile. I couldn't feel any pride in anything. I hated myself.
I guess I'll share a few things about myself though. I'm 23, I've been practicing magic tricks for 12 years. Off- and on, as the usual obsession goes. As a kid I would practice in my room for hours, at least 3 hours a day everyday, sometimes 6 hours. I wish I had that commitment now but my depression has come back and it's hard to find it. I've lost interest in almost everything.
I put in over 1,500 hours of practice into a single trick. I've heard it takes 10,000 hours for world championship. I want to compete for FISM one day, a world c hampionship of magic. But, I need to work on my showmanship and hate reading that book about it. It's just not fun to read, and I hate doing it. maybe I'll buy another one. Anyway..
I used to be addicted to an online game, badly. It was an escape for me. I couldn't socialize well in real life, so I got addicted to an online MUD (Multi-user domain), kind of like world of warcraft but with no graphics and all text. It was released in 1985. I played it , being extremely addicted, for over 11 years. It ruined my life. But I felt so good playing it, just like a drug. I recently quit it for the 4th time after relapsing.
But, as I learned to type well as a kid using a program my dad taught me called read write and type, I really excelled in typing. I got very good at it. Eventually, I competed for the united states championship for tyiping, called the Ultimate Typing Championship. I got 7th place, but was bumped up to 3rd place for the semi finals. I didn't answer my email. I could've had a shot to get a flight out to SWSW, Austin Texas, been on TV , and to compete for the grand prize of 5K. I contribute this to my greatest failure in life. It has never been held since.
I've lost 101 lbs. I went from 30% bodyfat to 10-11%. I have loose skin, and I hate that. Can't get over it, and it developed into BDD. Anyway, enough of my own problems. Back to the subject, what have you done, in you rinterests, that you feel proud of?
Kevin
PS: Sorry this is so long.