A new outlook... (kinda long, beware)

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I have recently developed a new outlook on life, brought on by an...unusual source. The source being a Visual Novel, or VN, basically a "video game" where it's more or less a story presented to you through text and images with some little choices thrown in every now and again that influence the plot. This VN being called Katawa Shoujo (there's a link to it) a game where you play a character who recently discovered that he has a heart disability and as such he is enrolled in a school specifically for people with certain disabilities (physical or mental...or both). The point of the game is though, to pick one of five girls and end up falling in love with them, dating them, etc. It's really not as "fetishistic" or distasteful as it sounds, it handles it with some nice tact and grace. ANYHOW, back to my point.

My new outlook is a simple one, but that's the beauty of it. When I was in high school I realized that I was faced with a choice between two options in how my life was going to be for awhile:

1. Be more social, get more friends, aim to date, etc.
2. Take up the path of solitude, don't worry about being social, etc.

I have chosen path two, I understand that I will not have many friends in my life, and I accept this. However, solitude does not mean that I will not have my voice heard. I have decided to forgo the desire for sociability and dating, and instead, replaced it with the desire to be able to stand up for myself. This is one thing I rarely do. I still want to help people, but I keep my true self hidden from view because it's "not normal". I have finally decided to throw this out the window. I will start saying "no" more when people ask me to do something and I really don't want to. I will interject my honest opinion more, no more BS will be had. I have not forgone the most important of human emotions however: love. I will never stop loving people and things. It doesn't matter if my love in someone doesn't necessarily reach a climax, what matters, is that I loved. It's not who or what I loved, it's that I loved, proof that I am human. If I make friends with this philosophy then so be it, they are just sprinkles on the cup cake.

Too long didn't read version: Stand for what you believe in, even if you stand alone.

So I must ask, (since this is a discussion forum and all,) does anyone else have a similar outlook? If not, could you please explain why? I really want to see other people's philosophy on life. We are all broken, such is the human condition, I would like to know how everyone is putting the pieces back together. (oddly poetic)

I've made the decision to stand for what I believe in, three years ago this coming Fall and I don't regret it. I've been a lot happier since I've done it. I did it for me, and I've got to remember that when people don't celebrate it with me.