For those who have been on here for a long time...

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...Do you also feel embarrassed by some of your first posts?

I've just read a few of them and some of them sound really cringe-worthy. Partly because I didn't know I sounded patronizing and I was much more Autistic back then than I am now.

Here are just a few (though I'll try not to bore you too much):

"I love talking. I like talking to myself and I usually like talking to other people. It keeps them interested in me so I can get to know them properly."
This makes me cringe because I now realize that people aren't interested in me when I talk, especially when I rant on about myself.

"As for the fantasy world, you've probably got a good one already, but if you haven't, then if you contact me then maybe I could help you with that too... "
This was a response to a guy who wanted name ideas for a fantasy world he had/he had almost created. I cringe at this now because, having read much fantasy, as he expressed, beforehand, clearly he didn't need help from someone like me, whom, at the time, knew hardly anything whatsoever about fantasy.

Sometimes yes, if I ended up socially incriminating myself, but mostly not.

I initially used the "my talents justify my disability" approach, something I'm ashamed of now.

Not so much on here, but elsewhere I did a bunch of the "Asperger's is just a difference not a disorder" and such about how there wasn't anything wrong with me. This bothers me now that I know what my difficulties are, as well as now that I understand that disability isn't inherently negative.

I'd love to see my posts in other forums when I was younger, but the only two forums I frequented have been erased from existance.

Maybe later I'll check myself here and see what I think

When I first got into the internet world back when I was 12, my socially stupidity showed in my text. I have been apart of a certain forum for years and whenever I look back at my early posts, they make me cringe. I sound like a d-bag at many times even though I didn't intend too.

I feel I haven't been X-Men enough...

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Yep.

OOH, yes. And the sad part is, I really haven't been on WP for a long time.

Oh, how people change...

I wince whenever I read through my old posts. During my first couple of years here, my social skills were atrocious. My special interest when I first joined were two anime called Hellsing and Trinity Blood, and I would derail literally every single topic I posted in in order to talk about them. It didn't matter what the original topic was about - it could have been about vaccines, Mother Teresa, chewing gum, anything - and I would derail it into talking about Hellsing and Trinity Blood. I'm sure I did plenty of other embarrassing things too, but that was the main one.

Oh, and a couple of other members have told me that I'm much friendlier now than I used to be, so I think I used to be kind of aggressive. I chalk it up to being just a typical angry-at-the-world teenager back then, though there were some things that probably caused me to behave that way, such as moving away from my childhood home and sharing a house with a bunch of deadbeat relatives at the time.

On this forum, I'm okay with what I've posted. Can't really say the same for others.

I'm okay with most of what I posted.

I worry that I was trying too hard when I first started posting here, but I haven't gone back to look.

None of this means I didn't post anything cringeworthy, just, I am blissfully unable to think of much right now.

I'm very embarrassed about some of my old posts. I was covering myself up with Austin Powers and Sid from Flushed Away. I've posted some horrible pictures of myself between 2007 and Mid 2009. Was that really the same person, or my rebellious twin sibling? I also finished each of my posts with Baby in 2004 and 2005. I also wrote that I was grieving the demise of the Routemaster in The Haven for all of 2006 on the 9th of every month. I've cut down my posting in the Summer of 2009 and came back deciding to be myself from the Early Fall of 2009 into the future.

Not so much here (probably because I haven't looked at any previous posts I've made past a week or two) but on other sites, big time. Things I used to be proud of I am now so ashamed of, like having more posts than anyone else at this large forum. I thought it made me cool and popular instead of a loser who has time to spend that much time posting about my special interest at the time. And that besides a few people most probably did not think I was awesome for doing that.

Actually, that is true offline too. When I think of stuff I did when I was younger thinking I was normal I cringe. How did I not notice others were not like me?