Kiprobalhato wrote:
b9 wrote:
i have health anxiety, and i conflate things in my mind and catastrophize possible outcomes of seeing any medical professional.
with dentists, i worry that they may detect some sort of lesion in my mouth that indicates cancer, and then going for tests that result in half my face being cut out and losing both my eyes in the process.
i know the possibility of such an outcome is minimal, but it is not a zero possibility, and therein lies the seed of a flourishing jungle of anxiety that i have difficulty in navigating.
i can relate.
i had a loose tooth (my right maxillary lateral incisor) about a year ago, and i freaked out that the cause was cancer.
i had the guts to go to the dentist who ordered an x-ray of my teeth, and i went and got the x-ray, and i harrassed the radiographer as to whether he could see anything unusual in the x-ray, and he said that he was not qualified to give an opinion, and that amplified my anxiety.
when i went back to the dentist with the x-ray, i was mortified and steeled myself for the delivery of his diagnosis, but it was simply that i had an infection in the gum, and that was treated with antibiotics, but he said the tooth was not rooted well in the gum any more, and would have to eventually come out.
well what a relief.
i still have that tooth, and it has not got any looser, but i now have a slight sensation of needing to sneeze in my right nostril. i am not sure if i feel anything or not really, but i fixate my mind on the area and am now worried that the infection i had a year ago has caused a cancer that is invading my sinus cavity and i am too paranoid to go to either the doctor or the dentist to find out.
if i start to feel facial pain or any true symptoms, i will go and try to fix it, but i will wait until my mind gives up being paranoid about that matter as it is.
i have had the sensation for about 3 weeks and i console myself that i would certainly be aware of true symptoms emerging by now if it was cancer, but it will take another 6 or so weeks of non development of symptoms to release my mind from that fixation.
then no doubt i will feel something odd somewhere else in my body that will consume my mind.