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15 May 2017, 9:30 pm

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I think it's really annoying people who have high self-esteem, and mostly of time they are just ridiculous doing stuff that isn't high quality but being proud of it. i never want to be like them, but now I'm wondering if maybe I'm wrong to be too critical???

Even if it's poor quality, at least those people have stuff done.



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15 May 2017, 9:44 pm

What's the point in hating people with high self esteem?
They will still think well of themselves, so your hatred is futile.
Maybe what you're feeling is envy.


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15 May 2017, 9:50 pm

Esteem isn't real.

It's a creation to make people feel better about themselves.

They are just tricking themselves, and yes I'm jealous.

The cause of self esteem woes is considering what others think of you, what they see.

The healthy and only logical option is to think who gives a f**k?

The people I think judge me are utter thundercunts, why the f**k do I care what they think?

Really, examine the people who are judging you and making you feel small and bad, do you actually give a f**k what they think?



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15 May 2017, 10:03 pm

it's not hate, it's more that i think it's annoying. i'm indeed envy because they can make things, but most of those people aren't actually as good as they think. and yes, it's futile.



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15 May 2017, 10:07 pm

there is this girl who went to school with me and she is relative of the owner of local newspaper, so she always got published there, previously as a ~teen columnist~ and now she has a column of restaurant review, and she writes so badly, full of syntax errors... and she talks a lot about how successful she is for being so young and working at a newspaper but it's so ridiculous???

i'm jealous for her having confidence enough to write but it's actually quite bad and she only get recognition because her family is rich and own half of the city



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15 May 2017, 10:15 pm

ltcvnzl wrote:
there is this girl who went to school with me and she is relative of the owner of local newspaper, so she always got published there, previously as a ~teen columnist~ and now she has a column of restaurant review, and she writes so badly, full of syntax errors... and she talks a lot about how successful she is for being so young and working at a newspaper but it's so ridiculous???

i'm jealous for her having confidence enough to write but it's actually quite bad and she only get recognition because her family is rich and own half of the city


She is talentless and every word she writes is an offense to your senses.
You know how she got the opportunity, but she still writes that s**t down.

I get why you hate her and why she matters, you can't just sit and shake your fist in impotent rage in her general direction though.
That road only leads to bitterness.

Write stuff, put it out there, she is a f*****g moron and she does it.



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15 May 2017, 10:17 pm

I don't write very well myself because I'm too critical



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15 May 2017, 10:18 pm

If they're not very good at doing things but they still do it, that's still 100% better than someone who knows they could do an excellent job but doesn't.

Even if it's an assault on the senses.

Things only improve because someone thinks, "I could do better than that!" And then they go on to do so.


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15 May 2017, 10:20 pm

i agree but i still hate them because i envy them
at the same time i have low self-esteem because i'm afraid to expose myself like those people do



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15 May 2017, 10:23 pm

ltcvnzl wrote:
i agree but i still hate them because i envy them
at the same time i have low self-esteem because i'm afraid to expose myself like those people do



What if I told you they were not exposing themselves?

Merely exposing a side they think others want to see, to read about?

What if they are just making all that s**t up?



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15 May 2017, 10:27 pm

even if it's just a side
exposing anything

i don't share anything with people – from stuff i produce to my own opinions – because i'm too afraid



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15 May 2017, 10:30 pm

I had a poem published in a magazine and it was the most s**t poem ever, written in 5 minutes.
I won a literary award for it.
It was in a Deafness magazine.

All the other stuff I agonised over got no recognition at all.

The difference was the first poem was s**t but honest.


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15 May 2017, 10:34 pm

i'm too worried about my self-image to be honest :/


i think i never won anything
maybe i just have low self esteem because i am baD?



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15 May 2017, 10:37 pm

WTF does that even mean?



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15 May 2017, 10:38 pm

that what



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15 May 2017, 11:51 pm

I don't hate anybody for any reason and I'm rarely jealous of people. I also have a balanced self-esteem.


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