I'm taking a break from here.

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Chances are, I'll probably be back. Still, it has come to my attention that this place tends to bring out my worst insecurities. It takes me back to some unpleasant memories. A part of me hates that I'm quitting because of this, because I feel like I should face it and deal with it because I'm strong but I don't feel particularly strong anymore. Even this feeling brings back uncomfortable memories.

There are things I've done and said on this forum that I can't take back. I wish that were possible sometimes, to just delete it all. There are posts I see that aren't necessarily against the rules, but they aren't great for my mental state right now. Real women are this, real women are that, gays are this, gays are that blah blah blah I just give up. I hate the restrictive gender roles. Frankly I also hate my body right now, because it sure doesn't feel like me anymore. I hate getting questions that expect me to speak for all women. Ha! I barely even know myself! My life feels like I'm just playing to other people's narratives and I feel trapped.

Everything here is just so pessimistic. I get that it can't always be happy, but I tend to feel worse after being here. Perhaps I fit in, but I sure don't feel like I belong. I just want to see my friends again and be hugged. Usually I hate hugs but I miss them a lot right now. No, I'm not sure what to think of that either. I don't know who I am anymore. Perhaps I've never known. I've dealt with trauma from a young age, and I cling to familiarity because it's safe but I hate it because it isn't me. Even though I don't know who that is.

Maybe I just need time to figure myself out. An identity crisis every once in a while is good, right?

Hi, lost dragon. Everyone needs a break at times, dragons are no exception. Rest and recover, and feel stronger soon.

Have a little break and go out and enjoy yourself. Go for a bicycle ride or three or something like that. You need a break to refresh you.

We will miss you.

Taking a break when you need to is good self-care. Keep it up.

I understand how you feel. Believe me.

Seems to me that the introspection you’ve shown in your post says that you have a lot of understanding to share on WP.
I hate to see WP lose, even for a short while, someone as sensitive as you.

I've taken a break before but strangely the allure of WP is too strong!!

I took a break from WP several months ago and felt great when I returned!

We look forward to your return, Lost Dragon!