Blacker wrote:
Edna3362 wrote:
I do feel and thought the same.
But that's usually how I see myself in relation to my physical self and this idea of self over something else...
Looking in the mirror and pictures of myself just reminds me more of it.
"A very unreliable human shell I'm trapped into".
Not merely because I seem to stand out or being weird -- but something else entirely; I've yet to describe what it is.
I can recognize myself visually and physically.
At the same time don't seem to like it and it is not consistent either -- sometimes it just looks strange, off, unnatural...
But it is possible that it's just the phenomena of seeing your own face as less attractive.
...What? You sound like school lol i don't understand
Are you saying you have internal conflict over the mirror?
No. Just the image of my face, what I've observed as I see myself move...
I do not have identity crisis or body image issues.
The conflict part is more or less to do with intent vs act; more do to with my body and mind vs my will.
You know the feeling that you wanna perform at a certain height or standard and you've actually done it countless times...
Only to find you're not able to and then not able to do it anymore?
And just leave you frustrated with yourself wondering what went wrong, why are you suddenly became so clumsy and shortsighted...
Like, say, you thought the whole time you're walking straight and firm -- but then, at some point you're not and don't anymore.
Why not faces or appearances in the same regard as well?