I do remember as a kid having toy cars and was a time interested in them. But now I have hardly any interest even though I drive a car but is partly because I had lessons persuaded by my dad who first got me lessons in a manuel car but learning that was hard. Then he got me lessons with someone who drove an automatic car and for a few years learnt in that and found it somewhat less stressful than a manuel car where you have to keep changing gears even when driving down a long straight road whereas an automatic does that by itself whilst I've got my hands on the wheel steering and my feet on the accelerator and brakes. I passed my hazard perception test after about 13 goes and only failed once on my driving test.
To be honest I don't feel as though I'm much of a different person even though I've driven in a car. There are times when I find it frustrating. Sometimes I feel like I'm still a bad driver, I have tendency to go quite fast, I sometimes slow down quite late and don't always leave a two metre space between me and the car in front of me. Yet I hate it when people drive too close behind me or look as though people are following me for the fun of it. I also hate being beeped at. I sometimes feel like I am the only idiot on the road who doesn't what he is doing sometimes.
I also seem to find myself envying those who do seem more interested in their cars or know exactly how to get one, sign all the paperwork on their own and know everything that works. My stepbrother who is 20, got himself one recently. I've never bought my own myself. When I got the one I drive now, my dad helped me in paying for it and signing the paperwork. Also, usually its not me that goes and has the MOT sorted, my dad has been the one who takes it down to be checked. Also the other day when we had been out for the day, the car broke down from a burst tyre and it wasn't me but my mum and sister who called for a recovery vehicle who picked us up and replaced the tyre for us which was great but it wasn't me but my mum who signed the paperwork.
I seem to be hard on myself sometimes for not being one of those people like my stepbrother who ''likes'' cars and seem to be able to sort out problems with them themselves and buy their own after they tire of their previous one. I seem to think other people who like me may not be ''interested'' in cars still do those the things I mentioned themselves without the help of anyone else in their family as though its just an essential like anything else and know exactly what to do and know how everything about their car works. I feel like the only one and yet I can do other things myself which I don't rely on parents for such as buying my own food, my own clothes, buying a new chromebook and pay for my own petrol though.
19 Sep 2022, 1:45 pm
