ThatGuy wrote:
It's been amazing for me to discover that everything is so neatly explainable. All of my little differences and things I didn't get used to upset me a lot, so there's a lot of relief now.
Lack of proper social skills, being a cripple in sport (despite lack of physical reason, I wasn't physically disabled in any way), clumsiness, ability to read at the age of 2,5, numerous nervous tics, eating disorder (not anorexia, I simply hate eating and it was so since my earliest childhood), maturity and common sense even in early childhood, executive disfunction, lack of empathy, sophisticated vocabulary used by me, thinking in pictures, OCD tendencies, lack of sense of humor, egocentricity, sincerity - all those peculiarities of mine that always were perceived by me as simply features of my personality are now seen by me in a new light.
ThatGuy wrote:
I'm also kind of mad at myself because I knew of AS years ago but only knew of it in the stereotypical way: if someone with AS has a special interest in X, they'll talk endlessly of X without knowing that people don't care, will write about X, decorate their room with posters of X, surf only sites on X, and just generally be weird and obsessive. I think if the general view of AS was more accurate and not stereotypical we'd see a lot more diagnoses.
Lol, I thought about this in the same way. It's fault of all those stereotypical, oversimplified descriptions everybody who's interested in the issue of AS can find with ease on the net. Maybe my own interests are not equally strong and long lasting like in those stereotypical cases but every so called normal person would be suprised by their intensity and sometimes pretty high level of weirdness.
ThatGuy wrote:
I also didn't consider it until recently because I buried my belief that I was fundamentally different a long time ago. .
In my case it was obvious to me I was different than people surrounding me and doesn't matter what I would do, I simply couldn't be one of a group. It was funny to think I could have an autistic spectrum disorder - such things always happen to others not to us, anyway, how on Earth could I have something in common with autism? - autistic people are mentally challenged while I not only wasn't ret*d but it was my intellect I used to blame for my weirdness - I was smarter, more clever, more mature than other children/teens and it's why we didn't have common ground. I was a victim of all those popular stereotypes about autism - according to my deeply rooted belief then, if you were autistic, you suffered from a severe mental retardation and you had to wear diapers all the time
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ThatGuy wrote:
" I just want to gather information, categorize, compare, etc.. I'm not interested in a practical way.
The same. I was always a type of a collector from my early childhood.