emotional aspie female?

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When oh when will these dumb "psychologists" pull their heads out of the bucketful of stereotypes they're stuck in?
When will they start seeing people as individuals with unique personalities instead of just a condition that only presents in 1 way that their outdated "knowledge" knows of?

Sooooooooooooooo irritating!! ! I have AS and co-morbid BPD/Bipolar, I am also a Highly Sensitive Person, EXTREMELY empathic, hypersensitive and highly strung female, so yeah, I'm emotional in the extreme. NOT in the way that NT women are though. There are times I appear to be very cold and aloof because I cannot express my empathy and there are times I scream like a Ringwraith because I am so distressed/angry usually at something like injustice, animal abuse, or being completely MISUNDERSTOOD.

I don't think that most psychologists are familiar with the phenomenon of mirroring and may take it for empathy.

Mirroring is when you are capable of sensing (there are different degrees though) of other people's emotions and you take them on but you can't tell whether it is your emotions that you are experiencing or somebody else's emotions, you can't manage them and you can't act adequate to the situation.
For an example, if you see a friend (or an enemy, there isn't that much difference) that is upset, you automatically become upset because you can sense it. You can't determine the source of the emotion though (it just takes over), you are unable to comfort your friend (because you feel that you are in need of comforting) yourself and you might end up screaming at your friend because it's overwhelming. Of course your friend is feeling offended and neglected because they came to you to share and seek comfort and you just yelled at them.
This is not empathy, the ability to sense how it feels inside other people's shoes. It is more like wearing other people's emotions. It is not something you do on purpose, it happens automatically and it is very hard to keep it in check.

I am a very emotional person too. But they aren't normal emotions, I guess. Little things really upset me. Other peoples' problems don't (unless it's my immediate family). If a friend or family member cries in front of me I ask them "Do you need a tissue?" and maybe talk to them a bit. I cannot physically console people. I cannot say 'I love you" to people, even when I do love them. I have to make them pieces of art or buy them things instead.

I cry all the time at movies and TV shows. I get crazy when things don't go my way, or when I screw stuff up. I feel things very deeply but I am really only good at expressing this through writing or art.

Well maybe this explains the PDD-NOS diagnosis. NOS is basically a diagnosis given when not all features of a disorder are present or if some or all of them are atypical. Also called diagnosis by exclusion, when the signs nd sympoms do not match the diagnostic criteria completely.
I guess that adult patients get much more often the PDD-NOS diagnosis as they can't always remember crucial details from their childhood and the close relatives who could remember aren't always available.

I'm a guy, and consider myself to be very emotional.
I think it's just that they don't present on the surface as expected.
...still waters run deep...

Im better at feeling them than showing them and when I try to show them, it probably comes across weird.
I still deeply care and love but I dont always find the right ways to let it show.

Oh and then I get angry.I dont get meltdowns( I did as a kid and almost as a teenager) but I get annoyed instead and frustrated and THAT, will show...guaranteed.It may appear as if it isnt justified and maybe judging the current situation, its not but I still very much feel it.

I also get nervous and worried quite a bit.

Both males and females on the spectrum are emotional...I can have trouble feeling appropriate emotions at appropriate times...sometimes my perspective can be badly skewed by my emotions..sometimes I can have harsh feelings towards myself for feeling what I perceive as irrational feelings..and it can really eat me up inside...going around and around in circles on whether I am entitled to feel certain ways about things...I have seen the way that emotional NT females can be...I know I am not like that...My business partner's girlfriend has Borderline issues..and she can scream hysterically for hours, and then turn around and act like nothing happened...it DRIVES ME NUTS...

I may have trouble expressing myself appropriately or understanding what appropriate is, but that is not the same as "Absence" of emotions..

It can stink..I sorta relate the difficulties I have with emotions to the problems I have with theory of mind..I have trouble relating to the motivation for people's emotions...I find it to be very confusing..

I can also have trouble differentiating between what I perceive to be rational and irrational emotions..(or have i already said that?)....and I will not be able to undertstand things that are not said..so a person's Stoicism, I can take quite literally, cause I am very bad at reading between the lines or under the surface....This can cause trouble for me....

I only get very emotional when someone is yelling at me or when I can just tell they are fed up and angry with me :/ But my emotions are pretty strong otherwise.. Things that would simply please a person make me REALLY happy I'm just ~enthusiastic~. I do get very nervous in certain situations but that's not a problem. the problem is how my BODY reacts lmao D: I get really sweaty and my face turns beet red, making me even more anxious!! !

Coming off as cold has never been a problem for me because my face is so expressive. If 80something percent of communication is body language, what does it matter if I don't talk much?

Oh, I'm extremely emotional, to the point where I can be reduced to screaming and writhing over what would strike most as merely a mild inconvenience.

I'm unusual, I think, in the emotional reactions I have, as well as in the triggers that can set these off. In particular, I easily fall prey to irrational anxiety and an inability to manage stress. The former is known to lead me to spend whole days (or nights) pacing agitatedly, with very little other than an obsessive focus on the source of anxiety in my mind until the issue is somehow taken care of; the latter generally results in the sort of uncontrollable outbursts that one might expect from a toddler.
Much of it is related to my AS, I suspect, in that I have a deep-seated need to feel as though I'm in control, and things like uncertainty concerning scheduling, unpredictability on behalf of other people, and unexpected changes to plan can destroy this sense of control very easily.

I definitely feel emotions but I can't describe them. It's like trying to find something by sticking your hand in water and just waving it around. I also don't know how to read other people's emotions. Things either don't affect me enough or they affect me too much for NTs, all the time!