I love this post. I mask as a pretty sophisticated academic, all black, grey, and tailored. Sometimes if I am working in a more rural area, this gets relaxed into black jeans, boots, and hipster flannel. I am really good at matching the style of a particular area. It's pretend, though, but it helps me sort of mirror -parrot easier, I am starting to realize. Regularly though, I prefer to be in overalls, skinny jeans, and screen tees with characters from Marvel and other shows/moves I love. I really like really comfy clothes and fabrics that are soft and don't rub. I think I like the overalls a lot because there is this pressure, sort of like my weighted blanket, that keeps me feeling secure and calm in my body. My room has lots of lights hanging, and I even hung fake lighted vines over my bathtub
I like stuffed animals a lot but only sleep with a bear my bf got me. I enjoy cartoons/movies a lot, preschool- early elementary-aged when really anxious..things like Winnie the Pooh and Little Bear, I also enjoy it when my BF reads me board books when I am really anxious. My bed is covered with frilly pillows and bedding too. My car also has some cutesy-type things and my laptop too. I feel like I was always younger than my age, just naive, and the adulting part has always seemed kind of off. Being referred to as a woman has been a strange adjustment and all that comes with it, but I am adjusting. I think I always was behind in development regarding being female, like girl-woman came slow. I think by the time I am 40, I will have adjusted to my body, but still, it is kind of odd how sexual it is, meaning how it appeals to others. When it happens, I have trouble reconciling it. Anyways, that's probably a topic for another post.