Women who think that they grew to fast.(Women only please)

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I would take laxatives (dieter's tea after a short stint on exlax), because I couldn't stand that when I ate food, it would stay in my body. I didn't believe that all of it could possibly be used for energy as we usually have waste. I would weigh myself 2-3 times a day at different times and chart it to calculate patterns. The worst thing about having gained so much weight is not fitting into my clothes anymore. I have this huge wardrobe of very particular pieces that I have been amassing since junior high, and now I am unable to wear them. I can't afford to buy new clothes, and I would rather not, because that would be me admitting that I intend to stay this weight. I never even owned a t-shirt and now that's all I wear, compliment of my roommate. I wear his clothes, but finally gave in and purchased a couple pairs of jeans for myself after years of avoiding leaving my house because I had nothing to wear out. I'm going back to school, so I think I will just cave and pick up a few cheap items at Wal-Mart or something, or just keep wearing Megadeth and Metallica t-shirts. Not sure if that will win over the teachers, though.

I haven't weighed myself in almost 2 weeks. It's my way of having discipline and not falling back into the obsessive-compulsive routine. I guess if I was better proportioned, I would feel okay being plump. After being an athlete, the weight distributes awkwardly. My hands and wrists are still so super-slim and my upper-body still seems petite...I'm just packing on the pounds in my legs and hips, making me seem like a stalky butch. I adore curvaceous classic pin-up bodies, though, but I'm just unlucky to be going down the path of classical renaissance instead, without the beautiful childbearing.

I guess I admire you for letting go and being confident in your new body. I wish I could set my psychological parameters to that discipline. When I first started changing, I thought I would be happy, because my mother would call me vain, so I figured it was the perfect time to show her how modest I could be...by not caring so much about my appearance, but I liked being groomed and looked at physical appearance as architecture. I wanted to have a good structure and pleasing aesthetics. I'll see if getting out of the apartment again on a regular basis will have me dropping pounds naturally without having to push it by overexercising and focusing too much on what I consume. It's a bad habit, even if the results are positive. Any habit that people can't commonly identify with is a bad one, which means alcoholism is good! maybe I should take THAT up, eh?...heh.

I think the real reason behind my eating disorder was actually to control my femininity. I wanted to be as little of a girl as possible, so that I wouldn't attract sexual attention, despite having matured young. I wanted to be treated like a human being, not looked at like a meal. I've still always maintained wearing clothing that hides my sexuality. I'm obviously a girl by looking at my face and hair, but with being thin, you won't inspire those to want to peer beneath your clothes, having a body more like a boy and such. I used to say I wanted to look like a holocaust victim, no matter how politically incorrect that may sound. I still say it as a joke...or seeking heroin chic and cropping my hair to appear androgynous, like Annie Lennox. So, I guess maturing young damaged me greatly. It has caused me to never feel comfortable as a female, and I loathe being called a "woman," because there is too much sexuality in that word.


It's the psychology behind masculinity and femininity. I would've rather been prepubescent for my entire life. But then again, if I had always looked that way, I would probably hate it and want to be more womanly and get attention from men *shrugs* never satisfied.

...so, you hate being short...how tall do you want to be? and how tall are you currently? If you wanted to, there are things you could do to add up to 6 inches to your height. It just takes some effort and upwards of a year. I was thinking about popping on a couple inches to my legs so that my weight would seem more proportional. Haven't found any females trying the process to increase their height, but there is a fair-sized community of males doing it. Really, I'm most interested in it because of the supposed impossibility to gain height after your bones lock in place, which makes me most inclined to test it solely on it's scientific merit, and maybe write a book detailing the experiment. I don't want anything more than 2 inches, however.

Just letting you know that it's never too late to get taller *shrugs* all it takes is determination.

I have always been tall for my age and I could pass off as a 12 year old when I was 8 despite that I hadn't entered puberty yet. I remember wearing a size 8 and then one day I was all of a sudden a size 14. When I was nine, I started budding and then I got vaginal discharge at that age I believe. Then I was developing pubic hair at age 10 and having to wear Junior clothing because not all Girls clothing fit me. It was very hard. I had been wearing women shoes since I was nine I think. Then I started wearing my first bra at age ten and so were the other girls in my class and they were all ten and hardly had any breasts. Then at age 12 I got a woman's body and had large breasts and went through a growth spurt and boy was that year the toughest year for me. I even got my first period two weeks before my 12th birthday. I feel I had a mild case of precocious puberty but it could have been worse. I have seen 8 year olds with small breasts or starting and I have seen a seven year old with little boobies. I read in a Time magazine when I was 15 some start developing pubic hair at age seven and it's more common in African Americans to have precocious puberty.

Being tall and early puberty was not easy for me. I wished I was given something that would slow down my development when I was 12 but it never happened. I didn't think there was such a thing.

Yup, I believe that too. There was a case over here a while back: older, strict religious parents, only daughter, 20s, involved with a guy behind their back, went into labor and bled to death in their bathroom. When they checked her online history, she'd been looking up various things like 'stomach cancer', but it was clear she absolutely had no clue she might be pregnant.

I asked a bunch of people about this elsewhere online recently, because I was curious: if you came across a kid who seriously didn't know stuff in that area that they should know, would you tell them? Most wouldn't, for fear of treading on the parents' toes over when they thought their kids were 'ready' to know about sex, and a few parents got very uppity about the idea of anyone else, teachers included, giving information to their kids. But if they won't, someone should. People complain about the State 'usurping parental rights', but in cases of incompetent parenting, someone has to step in. And not preparing a child properly for the world they have to live in is incompetent parenting. Even if you don't, as a parent, think it's important that your child should be a happy sexual adult eventually (and being kept sexually ignorant as a child and teen makes that part of life very much more difficult, take it from me), you should at the very least think it's important that they know how and why to protect themselves in that area. A bald 'Don't talk to strangers' is not and was never enough.

I'd definitely step in myself if I came across a girl of 9 or 10 (because even more girls start early these days) who hadn't been told about periods. Carrie is fiction, but if you want real horror, look up Chad Varah and how he came to found The Samaritans. Truly tragic.