Peta wrote:
I have fear of growing up I think
I'm 26 but feel like a little girl and want to grow down not grow up
Stay a little girl forever
Anyone else fell like this?
Why do you think this is? I’m just curious if maybe you have issues in your life that make it difficult to cope as an adult. I know for me I still obsess over some children’s things like book illustrations and uh....a few toys.
There was a time I wanted to go back to being a child as I felt I had less insecurities about my body or gender stereotype. On the other hand my childhood was chaotic with an alcoholic father and overworked mother. But there are occasions when I look at my childhood self around the ages of 8-10 wishing I still had that ability to be imaginative as I was back then. My world seemed filled with fantasies and possibilities. I’m not sure if that would be healthy now but I suppose it could have been a coping mechanism.
I still have trouble adulting or relating too much to people my age as I’m not on the same level in areas most of them are but I attribute that more to ableism, a word I hate using but the only term I can think of for some of us delayed in certain aspects of our lives.
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