Look, Britt. I think I know what's wrong, but I don't practice medicine. You need to see someone. Someone good. You might never get over it, but you can learn to take your stress level down. If you live in Indiana I know someone. If not, well, there are lots of very good psychiatrists. You probably have every right to be angry, but it's screwing up your life. Why let it. The treatment isn't simple, but it doesn't involve a lot of drugs, or screwball methods. Just a good psychiatrist, and by the way, you're not going crazy, and it's probably got nothing to do with AS.
Hope that helps.
If you want to pm me, look me up in the members roster. If not, don't. But get some help.
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