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03 Sep 2008, 12:05 pm

When I was child in day care (being "babysat" as part of group of kids between ages 2-10), I was verbally picked on by one of the employees. Not sure exactly when (my age then) but I recall the person & the lines crystal clear, on more than one occasion, calling me "thunder thighs" & "bubble butt".
In photos, I don't look particularly heavy, either. If I didn't have a complex (bodily shame issue) by then, I sure did afterwards. Ridiculous (that person got away with treating kids this way) !


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03 Sep 2008, 3:26 pm

This sounds extremely corny and hard (and it is hard) but in order for you to successfully lose excess weight down to a reasonable level (not under your ideal) is for you to accept who you are and believe that whatever negative thing that someone says to you is a result of their OWN insecurity.. and its not about you. It is VERY hard to do because I have been picked on and shunned too but I am working on it. But I am binging MUCH less these days because I know that binging will not bring me happiness and joy. Only temporarily you get a "high" and then afterwards you feel as guilty as anything and the self loathing is pushed even further.. I have had enough of the vicious cycle. But once you do accept yourself, you will be able to work on your own body and improve your health for YOU.. and not for anyone else. Like I said I am not anywhere near there yet but I am working on it.. and it feels a hell of a lot better than binging yourself into a hole.


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08 Sep 2008, 10:28 pm

I've dealt with EDNOS leaning towards Anorexia twice in my life, i'm good now but my relationship with food is not all that healthy.



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11 Sep 2008, 1:47 pm

I was diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa type I four years ago and 'recovered' as far as weight goes thrice. I'm going on another year with Anorexia Nervosa subtype II.

I think alot of my mental health problems, including eating disorders, obsessive complusive behaviour, anxiety and perfectionism are linked with AS. I think they're all very much intertwined for me.

There's some interesting reasearch that suggests a dispostion for individuals on the spectrum to develop eating disorders

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/uknews/ ... utism.html



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11 Sep 2008, 2:22 pm

when i was a teen i started with compulsive/binge eating.

but after awhile, i gained weight that got harder and harder to lose, so i worked on trying to make myself throw up, switching over to being more of a bulimic in my early 20s.

i'd say that in the last few years i have not had a disorder, though i still get easily upset by food.


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11 Sep 2008, 3:33 pm

i_Am_andaJoy wrote:
when i was a teen i started with compulsive/binge eating.

but after awhile, i gained weight that got harder and harder to lose, so i worked on trying to make myself throw up, switching over to being more of a bulimic in my early 20s.

i'd say that in the last few years i have not had a disorder, though i still get easily upset by food.


I think we will always be affected by food somehow. No matter how well we keep the disorder under control and some people have conquered their eating disorders but I think it is something that yo have to work on all the time, keeping yourself in line and slip ups may happen. I could never be bulimic because I am emetophobic.. and I have thought so many times in my past if I wasn't emetophobic I wonder if I would have made myself purge because I have been a compulsive over eater since I was 11. But after doing so much soul searching over the past year I know what those triggers were. The hardest thing for me is now breaking the habit! I am actually looking into life coaching because I do need some help with this, its not cheap but it may well be worth it (and a lot of them are flexible with prices)


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12 Sep 2008, 5:05 am

I've got mild bulimia. Pretty pointless, as I'm still not thin. Usually after i've binged on junk food.



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12 Sep 2008, 7:07 am

lionesss wrote:
i_Am_andaJoy wrote:
when i was a teen i started with compulsive/binge eating.

but after awhile, i gained weight that got harder and harder to lose, so i worked on trying to make myself throw up, switching over to being more of a bulimic in my early 20s.

i'd say that in the last few years i have not had a disorder, though i still get easily upset by food.


I think we will always be affected by food somehow. No matter how well we keep the disorder under control and some people have conquered their eating disorders but I think it is something that yo have to work on all the time, keeping yourself in line and slip ups may happen. I could never be bulimic because I am emetophobic.. and I have thought so many times in my past if I wasn't emetophobic I wonder if I would have made myself purge because I have been a compulsive over eater since I was 11. But after doing so much soul searching over the past year I know what those triggers were. The hardest thing for me is now breaking the habit! I am actually looking into life coaching because I do need some help with this, its not cheap but it may well be worth it (and a lot of them are flexible with prices)


Well, it's like being an alcoholic in some ways. The potential is still lurking under the skin no matter how long we've gone without exhibiting the behavior. Replacing the behavior with healthier alternatives can make it almost non-existent, but it will always lurk just under the surface. No matter how well we've learned the new behaviors and incoroorated them into ourselfs, under stress those old habits can surface.



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12 Sep 2008, 9:29 am

flutter wrote:
lionesss wrote:
i_Am_andaJoy wrote:
when i was a teen i started with compulsive/binge eating.

but after awhile, i gained weight that got harder and harder to lose, so i worked on trying to make myself throw up, switching over to being more of a bulimic in my early 20s.

i'd say that in the last few years i have not had a disorder, though i still get easily upset by food.


I think we will always be affected by food somehow. No matter how well we keep the disorder under control and some people have conquered their eating disorders but I think it is something that yo have to work on all the time, keeping yourself in line and slip ups may happen. I could never be bulimic because I am emetophobic.. and I have thought so many times in my past if I wasn't emetophobic I wonder if I would have made myself purge because I have been a compulsive over eater since I was 11. But after doing so much soul searching over the past year I know what those triggers were. The hardest thing for me is now breaking the habit! I am actually looking into life coaching because I do need some help with this, its not cheap but it may well be worth it (and a lot of them are flexible with prices)


Well, it's like being an alcoholic in some ways. The potential is still lurking under the skin no matter how long we've gone without exhibiting the behavior. Replacing the behavior with healthier alternatives can make it almost non-existent, but it will always lurk just under the surface. No matter how well we've learned the new behaviors and incoroorated them into ourselfs, under stress those old habits can surface.


You couldn't have said it better..it is most definitely an addiction. A few years ago I joined Jenny Craig (which is NOT the answer unless you want a quick weight loss which may not last) and I lost A LOT of weight and actually looked great. But once it was confirmed that my son had autism (and he was worse off than he is now, AND I knew nothing about it at the time, let alone myself being under the spectrum) I thought of doom and gloom and my old eating habits resurfaced and before I knew it I was back to where I was before JC :( I am not much slimmer than that now, but thats okay because I am still digging in deep WHY I have done this and why I do this, and its also a matter of breaking the habit.. but yes, no matter how well you conquer old habits do linger on, especially if ultra stressful situations come up. But after learning about yourself and learning about ways to deal with it, what could have been a year long "slip up" may be only a "slip up" that last for a few days or even a few hours.. because you will then realize that its not the way to deal with stress. It's a vicious cycle!!


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12 Sep 2008, 10:04 am

yeah, soul searching and figuring out the WHY does help. when i was throwing up every day i was also cutting a lot, going to the hospital often for stitches. but even with things under "control," it would still be easy to fall back into old patterns when under stress.

now i allow myself a lot more stimmy behaviors, which i didn't a few years ago, because i thought i needed to stop doing weird thngs. but now i just let myself pet my arms or hum or whatever, intead of yelling at myself and telling myself it is an affectation and i'm being stupid.


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20 Sep 2008, 4:16 am

hale_bopp wrote:
I've got mild bulimia. Pretty pointless, as I'm still not thin. Usually after i've binged on junk food.
A lot of bulimics actually put on weight.

I was anorexic, and then bulimic. I don't have an eating disorder any more, although many people mistake my other food issues for the ED still being around. I am very picky with food, and I tend to like eating the same food over and over for months. I don't like food touching, and I get very anxious when it's made by someone else. None of this is (in my opinion) an eating disorder though.


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24 Sep 2008, 4:06 pm

I'm recovering from a potato chip compulsion/maybe compulsive overeating.



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25 Sep 2008, 12:40 pm

I went through a potato chip phase a few summers ago. The salt was so hard on my lips I had to switch to a low-salt variety.

They were good, though. Too bad I gained so much weight.



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08 Oct 2008, 5:13 pm

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I think alot of my mental health problems, including eating disorders, obsessive complusive behaviour, anxiety and perfectionism are linked with AS. I think they're all very much intertwined for me.

Heavens yes, that really rings really true for me. As for me, I've went the wayside the route of perfectionism in a way to lastly attempt to be "good enough" for others since my AS obviously failed them. That landed me in more than a decade of anorexia. I've been in recovery for 4 1/2 years.



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09 Oct 2008, 9:33 am

I am in recovery from, what was diagnosed as Eating Disorder-Not Otherwise Specified. I go back and forth between starvation and binge eating. Laxatives and compulsive exercise are thrown in for "good measure".
Even now, I can feel the desire to starve, worming it's way into my brain. *shrugs*
That's all I can say about that.



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11 Oct 2008, 12:02 pm

:o YES,sometimes i will have eating disorder in my menstrual period!