flutter wrote:
lionesss wrote:
i_Am_andaJoy wrote:
when i was a teen i started with compulsive/binge eating.
but after awhile, i gained weight that got harder and harder to lose, so i worked on trying to make myself throw up, switching over to being more of a bulimic in my early 20s.
i'd say that in the last few years i have not had a disorder, though i still get easily upset by food.
I think we will always be affected by food somehow. No matter how well we keep the disorder under control and some people have conquered their eating disorders but I think it is something that yo have to work on all the time, keeping yourself in line and slip ups may happen. I could never be bulimic because I am emetophobic.. and I have thought so many times in my past if I wasn't emetophobic I wonder if I would have made myself purge because I have been a compulsive over eater since I was 11. But after doing so much soul searching over the past year I know what those triggers were. The hardest thing for me is now breaking the habit! I am actually looking into life coaching because I do need some help with this, its not cheap but it may well be worth it (and a lot of them are flexible with prices)
Well, it's like being an alcoholic in some ways. The potential is still lurking under the skin no matter how long we've gone without exhibiting the behavior. Replacing the behavior with healthier alternatives can make it almost non-existent, but it will always lurk just under the surface. No matter how well we've learned the new behaviors and incoroorated them into ourselfs, under stress those old habits can surface.
You couldn't have said it better..it is most definitely an addiction. A few years ago I joined Jenny Craig (which is NOT the answer unless you want a quick weight loss which may not last) and I lost A LOT of weight and actually looked great. But once it was confirmed that my son had autism (and he was worse off than he is now, AND I knew nothing about it at the time, let alone myself being under the spectrum) I thought of doom and gloom and my old eating habits resurfaced and before I knew it I was back to where I was before JC
I am not much slimmer than that now, but thats okay because I am still digging in deep WHY I have done this and why I do this, and its also a matter of breaking the habit.. but yes, no matter how well you conquer old habits do linger on, especially if ultra stressful situations come up. But after learning about yourself and learning about ways to deal with it, what could have been a year long "slip up" may be only a "slip up" that last for a few days or even a few hours.. because you will then realize that its not the way to deal with stress. It's a vicious cycle!!