What were you like as a little girl?

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Weirdly enough, when I see myself in my family's home videos I feel like it's an entirely different person. I was enthusiastic, hyperactive, and something of an camera whore (there are several instances of me shouting for my dad to film me doing some new thing I learned, like roller skating or dancing). I also lived in my own little world, though. I had no trouble playing games by myself, creating whole universes with my toys. I was very organized and methodical about it. If someone, like one of my siblings wanted to join in, I was happy to have them (and explain thoroughly the story behind each character). However, by about fifth or sixth grade I withdrew. Especially throughout middle school and my first few years of high school, I was very shy and awkward. Now, I've gotten a lot better in social situations, but still pretty below average. And I dislike attention now. :p

I learned reading and writing really fast, one language at 3, another at 6. I was really good at school, had a lot of friends, lots of parties after 7 yrs old. Before that I would just play by myself with barbies, mutilating them and making up various scenarios and would make up my own words and just mumble to myself. I was always bad at math, and would cry when I had to study it. Things made a huge turn for the worse when I turned 12, got my period, found out makeup, smoking then alcohol and drugs although never had an addictive personality. was always too skinny for my age until late teens then would make myself eat, unless I was doing coke. Never had a steady boyfriend, was pregnant twice, went through periodical extremes of being extra careful and "moral" to not caring for rules, and people at all.
I was wondering maybe its something in the environment that just doesn't agree with certain individuals hormones, causing malfunctions in the brain, since there are hormonal receptors in the brain.

I looked really stupid, because I didn't care about how I dressed and my mother had a rather, uh, individual sense of fashion. For years, I was often mistaken for a boy. I understood social rules even less than now and must have acted very weird. I had glasses, short hair and unusual hobbies.

AUtistic / ARtistic

I was very bossy, wanted everything my way and would get very upset if it didn't go my way. I always had to be in control. I also hated losing and would get very upset. I was very talkative and quiet. I also hated being alone so I always wanted to play with friends. I was also a teaser and very provocative and I have always loved drama. I liked watching kids get into trouble and would feel excited when I see a kid being in trouble from an adult. I always wanted to know what happened. I also had tantrums or meltdowns when things didn't go my way or when things go wrong. I also copied my mother so I ended up treating my brothers like my children. I also remember I never thought about other people until my pre teens as in thinking how it makes them mad or not like it if I did this or that to them and it make me a bad person and selfish. I also remember being very rigid and played computer games and toys a certain way and board games too and video games.

My friends had to pull teeth with me when we play. I also had a very short attention span and couldn't concentrate with lot of noise and I always had tons of homework. Mom had to put me in the den which she called "The Quiet Room." I also had a hard time controlling my behavior and I get very hyper and have a hard time controlling my impulse. I always knew then I was different and I thought everyone tried harder and was better at it than me. I also used to lie to try and get out of trouble but it rarely worked and I sometimes made stories up. I had separation anxiety in my toddler years because I would get scared if I was left alone with other kids I didn't know so I refused to cooperate in class pictures and school programs. I don't think I showed things to people but mom says I did. I would point to things when I see things. I also wrung my wrists and looked around. I have some memories of banging my head out of frustration, I also loved PE because we played games and I ran around but then I started to hate it in middle school because it was all about sports now. I also acted out life with my Barbies and mimicked peoples behavior with it and off of TV shows too. I never really tested people the way normal kids did, I only tested people to see how they react, see if rules applied to me, see what would happen if I did something because no one would tell me why I couldn't do it. Telling me "because I said so" wasn't the answer for me. So in a way I was a tester too like a normal child. I remember my obsessions too early as second grade and before that I never really noticed except I had favorites.

I also wandered off as a small child and didn't seem to have boundaries so I had to wear an ID bracelet. I was also tender hearted and very sensitive so I got upset more easily and would cry and anything bad would hurt my feelings, it was worse when I was ten because of puberty. I was also very forgiving so I always forgave my friends for how they treat me and I be over it the next day. I was also taken advantage of and I could be talked into anything. I rarely joined after school activities and did very few sports growing up. I took gymnastics and pottery and did voice lessons and that was my mom's way of giving me therapy to help with my speech, motor skills, and coordination. She made it all fun so I wouldn't feel like I was broken.

Whenever we go to peoples houses to visit, I seldom played with other peoples kids. I was also a tomboy so I was gender neutral meaning I played with boy toys and girl toys and I did girl stuff and boy stuff. I still wore girl clothes of course, never boy clothes. I never asked for boy stuff. I also read a lot too when I first could read. I also had a very active imagination but I was never good at being creative when it came to arts and writing.

I think I have always been obsessive because I go on and on about something and in one of the videos I kept talking about this new toy I just got in my Christmas stocking when I was six. It was when I was older mom started to tell me to stop talking about something and talk about something else. She would always let me know I have already talked about X so talk about something else.

I also hated being punished so me being punished for every wrong thing I do worked. It also taught me to follow the rules or there is a consequence. It didn't matter how illogical the rule was or how dumb it was, I just didn't want to be in trouble so I followed it.

I was very clumsy and kids would get mad at me and think I kicked them on purpose or bumped into them on purpose or made them walk into me on purpose. I can remember a couple kids telling me I am long arms so I should be able to throw far. My throwing actually got better as I got older.

As for the videos, I seemed normal. I noticed my awkward gates and I was quiet in my early years and I started talking more when I was five. But yet from what I have read about myself, I was not what I seemed in the videos. Maybe I did show odd behaviors but I wouldn't notice because it seems normal to me. Only I would notice and other people wouldn't so I say I seemed normal.

I was a tomboyish brat until the age of 9 or 10, although I calmed down considerably before that age, when I learned to read and devoured every book I could lay my hands on. In kindergarten and the first years of primary school, though, I was a rowdy kid, disagreeing with the teacher all the time, speaking before my turn ('raise your hand!')... On the other hand, I mostly preferred to play on my own and learned myself gymnastics early on in kindergarten. I loved climbing trees and played soccer barefoot with my brother and his friends. I've always had one close friend, from a very early age on, but later on, that was just for show, as in "I'm not standing or having to eat lunch alone". I was a smart and bookish kid, and got really bored with school at age 16, because I felt ready to start university. I always preferred the company of older people, such as teachers, and found most of my peers incredibly childish... Wise beyond my years, but then again, it sometimes feels like I stopped evolving at age 16, whereas most of my peers (and brother/sister) did grow up to be independent, succesful, sociably apt people. I'm the "academic" one at home, but they all know I'm quite out of it on any other level.... *sigh*

I learned how to read when I was 3-4 and kept to myself with my books. I had a few friends around my neighborhood, but they were too embarrassed to hang out with me at school, so I was always alone. I was picked on a lot, so it made me bitter towards people. I did very well in school except for math. I wore a lot of shirts with cats on them because I loved cats. I had a lot of stuffed animals and I mutilated Barbie dolls because I thought she was a b***h. I tried to catch birds, but I never could. I would sneak beers from my parents because I liked the taste of it, even in elementary school. I spent a lot of time outdoors, identifying different insects and trees. I collected rocks and had a rock tumbler.

The same way I am now - very masculine.

As a kid, I strongly preferred being alone to being with others. I would just sit by myself and keep myself entertained, something my mom was glad about. My sister on the other hand needs constant socialization ugh. I mainly played with legos and toy figures, and when I got older, I liked video games as well. I would just fall into my own little world. I did have a few friends though, but most kids didn't like me b.c I was weird. I always followed the rules and according to my gramma, only had to be told something once and I'd remember. If I did something wrong, I felt terrible.

I was also very sensitive. My sensory issues were much worse back then. I had to be taught the right pressure to brush my teeth, for example, as well as comb my hair and lather shampoo into my hair. I couldn't use conditioner or lotion because I could not stand the feeling of grease. I would go all winter without using lotion - My hands were extremely dry and cracked. I could also hardly eat any food. My sensory issues were so terrible I could not even swallow most meat, vegetables or fruits.
I also always had to have something to play with in my left hand (still do btw). What that was changed with time and necessity: a watch, a slinky, a clacking toy, those mardi gras necklaces, a hair clip, and currently I use binder clips.

I didn't learn to tie my shoes until I was in 5th grade, and I wasn't able to ride a bike until sometime in middle school. Though I wanted to learn how to skateboard, when I would skateboard, my mom told me I would bend my hands very weird, and it made me paranoid so I stopped.

I never liked to be hugged/close to anybody. It grossed me out in a way. So I came off as being very cold in that respect. However, I was a very kind kid. Probably more than any of the other kids I went to school with.

I wrote my own stories too. A skill I no longer have. And I mean that I would write hundreds of pages long stories.

Hmm, that's all I can think of for now.

Withdrawn, socially ret*d and daydreamy. I acted very unusually and got upset easily.

I was incredibly rigid. When I was toddler, Mom and Dad had to drive the same route anytime we drove from point A to point B, because otherwise I would tantrum. Mom had to put me in daycare because she had a job that required her to take a nap in the daytime, and I stopped taking naps (whereas before, she had me in a "daycare lite" program). I tantrummed for the first two or three weeks when I was dropped off and picked up, but then I stopped tantrumming completely. It was change aversion, not separation anxiety.

I tended to wander. I would get fidgety or distracted, and just wander off someplace.

I was an early reader. My speech therapist started teaching me phonics when I was four and a half. I learned pretty quickly, and was always regarded as being above grade level until I dropped out of high school.

I was very withdrawn. I had at least one friend all from the age of four throughout elementary school, but that ended with middle school. I just wanted to concentrate on schoolwork, but my parents were, for lack of a better word, disturbed by my lack of friendship. They convinced my middle school special ed teacher to be concerned too, but that ended before the time I graduated from middle school. Thank goodness.

Scared of everything
Had an opinion on everything
Well deveoped sense of humour
Bookworm
Daydreamer
"Jammy"
Opportunist
Boy Scout- lol they let girls join in the UK

According to people that knew me at the time, I was an hyperactive child that ran around annoying people and bothering them talking non-stop about the same things, and who also did weird things, or things that could harm myself and people around me, and there was no way I could understand it.

I didn't talk to anyone unless I knew them, especially males (I only had sisters). I didn't smile much. I had one friend. I was nervous to be in public places (like school) without a parent or friend. I didn't like it if other kids touched my toys, all of which were interest-based. I was constantly crawling around, pretending to be a dog (though sometimes a dinosaur or horse). I obsessively rewatched movies I liked. I was physically bad at sports, nor was I aggressive enough to really participate. I didn't like typical outdoor playing (such as bike riding or sports, obviously). I was an extremely picky eater, and even when I had something I liked, I wouldn't usually eat all of it. And I went through a germaphobe phase, where I didn't want to touch anything with my hands (I would manage to buckle my seatbelt with my elbows and wrists), and I was afraid of getting chlorine on things after I went swimming (I know better now, don't worry).

I was very isolated, arranging averything in patterns and writing stories or songs. In hindsight, I was much more stereotypical as a child than I am now.