Morgana wrote:
mechanicalgirl39 wrote:
Hovis wrote:
mechanicalgirl39 wrote:
I recoil at the idea of being a fertile female, for some reason. I feel disempowered by it. I'm actually trying to lose much of my body fat to the point that I won't ovulate. With my hyper-fast metabolism, it isn't hard to do.
I inadvertently did this once, and menstrual cycle indeed ceased. I always imagined one would have to lose vast amounts of weight for such a thing to happen, but I only dropped a fraction below 8 1/2 stone. That weight is my own 'tipping point'; if I drop below it, I will stop, and when I rise above it, I will start again.
I do this very easily. I menstruated like 3/4 times last year due to staying just that bit too lean.
Yay for my high adrenaline level and low weight.
Wow. In my younger days, I was anorexic. I did stop menstruating. Unfortunately, my body reacted against me by filling up with water and becoming totally bloated! (This happens to some people when they fast). I´m usually naturally quite lean, but I suddenly looked voluptuous! I got unwanted attention by drippy men. Never again....
Oddly enough, when I started eating more normally, the water dropped off, making me look more thin (and my period returned)...strange...I actually lose weight when I eat more...
That would be because your body gets the message that it is deprived and should store whatever it can.
Instead of not eating, if you want to lose weight, you should eat plenty, but lean foods, and do lots of heavy exercise.
Does anyone feel extreme disgust at being female sometimes?
Sometimes during the PMS phase I go into a huge fit of rage and disgust, and I want to hack off my breasts or external genitalia, anything to obliterate my femaleness...to assert my control over my own body...Sometimes if I'm in a really messed up mood I come close to actually doing this.
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