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So I moved out to move out of my parents house for several reasons:

1) My mum was going crazy at my parents house with my dad being gone and stopped cleaning and basically turned into a crazy cat lady.

2) My mum tried to commit suicide because my dad was gone.

3) My mum eventually decided to go to the Philippines to spend Christmas with my dad and they might stay there.

I found a house with the landlord looking for students and asking $300 for a room. I've lived with roommates before although they were people I knew and I decided to take it. The house was in really bad shape. The place was dirty. I found out that there would be three other girls living with me and then I found out all three of them were friends. I'm 27, one is 19, one is 20 and the other is 29. I moved in before them because they wanted to wait until the house was cleaned up a bit more and they were refinishing and painting their bedrooms. All three of them are lesbians which is fine, I have nothing against being gay. The two girls live in one room and the other girl lives in a room by herself.

I have a hard time connecting with them. I'm really shy and always run out of things to say to them. I basically live in my bedroom and hardly ever use the living room to avoid talking to them. They like partying a lot. The two girls who are together argue a lot and the other girl complains a lot. My stuff always gets moved around the kitchen and I don't bother saying anything because I don't want to make waves with them anymore than I have to. I have a cat and I usually leave her in my bedroom on the weekends for two nights while I visit my boyfriend. She's been quiet until up to now. I make sure she has clean litter and enough food and water. I guess last weekend she started meowing and my one roommate got worried about the cat and pissed at me because it was also annoying her and texted my boyfriend. (She got his number from a friend of his she knew). She was pissed off so we drove back to see the cat. I keep my door open for the cat now so she doesn't freak out.

I pay for Internet and cable. I now pay $260 for rent because my landlord let me get a deduction for the Internet. I'll probably get rid of the cable, they keep buying movies on the cable but they said they'll pay for them when the bill comes out. Ever since the whole cat thing, the one girl has been more distant with me and it's been kind of awkward. I'm starting to get really depressed and I miss my parents from how they used to be and I wish I lived on my own but I really don't want to have to pay a lot for rent considering I'm living off student loans. Oh yeah, another thing is I can hear the one girl masturbating most nights and the two girls having sex and it kind of bothers me. I turn on my heater but I can usually still hear them. I'm obviously not going to say anything about that. I know communication is key but how can I communicate with people when I don't know how to interact with them. Plus it's been about one month and a half and it almost seems like it's too late with my roommates. My boyfriend comes and visits me sometimes but we never have sex in the house. I'd move out with him but he can't move out yet because he owes his dad a lot of money plus he's going back to trade school in August for his last gas fitter technician license.

The bottom line is I feel extremely depressed, especially now that I have a month to kill with no school and not much to do. The weather is usually miserable outside and I feel like killing myself. I've already been in the hospital once and I can't see my psychiatrist until January and my school counselor just cancelled an appointment until January as well for personal reasons. I take pills and all of a sudden they don't seem to be working as well. I don't know how to interact with people other than the few friends I do have.

Hugs?

I am sorry Dec is bad for you. I purposely scheduled to be out most of the month because of the long lag in school (either with my SO or my sister's fam). At least I have a set time when I can move with my SO (after he finishes another semester of millwright trade school, and I finish one -hopefully last- semester of classes)

Roommate situations can be hard, I had a bad one before stumbling into my good one now (I go to school and am a GTA during the day, she is a night ER nurse who has 1 class for her master's a week, plus we are fairly equal on philosophical view the world way).
I know you do not want to rock the boat but letting things simmer is not good for over all dynamics. This may be an example of the phrase "the pot calling the kettle black" as I did not do this during my previous roommate time, and my anxiety skyrocketed because of it.
I do not know how to fix this now.
Is there a way to have a house meeting to set rules for expectations. I know it seems easy to not rock the boat or pretend like you do not have needs, and that being too pushy is bad, but it might help if clear, definitive, precise expectations were laid out.

Mostly *hugs*

Thanks. I guess I should step up my game if I don't want to be a doormat huh? I just have to try and do it without coming off as stuck-up which is hard for me.